Rant and Rave
Pissed off, angry, depressed, sad sad sad sad, trying to keep control, feeling like losing myself, but it's all up to me, I just have to remember that losing myself is not an option, I have to keep me together for the sake of everyone, not me? Why not me? When have I ever cared about me? never really. I'm always self sacrificing, always looking to give me to someone else, hoping they might understand some way to use me to make me happy, I don't know, iI never know. I always just follow the leader, because if it's ok with the leader, it's ok with me.
Want to scream, want to tear, and fear, amke fear, create fear, want to be happy, want to understand, want to fit in and be cool, want to help others want to help me. Want want want, unnecassary want, just need shelter, food, and air, don't need emotions, don't NEED me, why am I stuck with me? why? why? Want to leave....
Want to express, want to be, but all I have is this useless blog. And no one wants to see.
Want to scream, want to tear, and fear, amke fear, create fear, want to be happy, want to understand, want to fit in and be cool, want to help others want to help me. Want want want, unnecassary want, just need shelter, food, and air, don't need emotions, don't NEED me, why am I stuck with me? why? why? Want to leave....
Want to express, want to be, but all I have is this useless blog. And no one wants to see.