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major rant ahead. so youve been forewarned.
im just so frustrated and upset. and its about, who else, matt. like im so upset that he lied to me. why would you promise to call so many times and not do it? its just soo frustarting.
you dont pick up your phone, dont respond to anything i send to you. what am i supposed to do? like what? am i supposed to go on pause and wait until we speak again.
i want to call you. i want to call you and just yell at you. and just make you listen. even though you know EVERYTHING on my mind. you know everything. you know what im thinking. you know im pissed and you know why i want to talk to you.
im scared to move on. cause i know, I KNOW that once i get in a relationship youll want back in my life and youll want to be with me again. which we all know that if you said you wanted to be with me, i wouldnt know what to do. i dont want to be put in the position where i have to chose between you and someone else. because i know i would hurt that person. cause i know i would give it up to be with you. and the fact that i know you would put me in the position pisses me off.
you have no rigth to put me in this position.
i just wish that you would do something.
i know youre afraid of this conversation. so am i. because what if this is something real. what if we screw up and were done forever. i dont want to live with not knowing.
do you kiss all youre exgirlfriends whenever you see them? im not thinking so.
haha sorry if you had to read this and dont get it. but i need to say it even if its to no one.
im just so frustrated and upset. and its about, who else, matt. like im so upset that he lied to me. why would you promise to call so many times and not do it? its just soo frustarting.
you dont pick up your phone, dont respond to anything i send to you. what am i supposed to do? like what? am i supposed to go on pause and wait until we speak again.
i want to call you. i want to call you and just yell at you. and just make you listen. even though you know EVERYTHING on my mind. you know everything. you know what im thinking. you know im pissed and you know why i want to talk to you.
im scared to move on. cause i know, I KNOW that once i get in a relationship youll want back in my life and youll want to be with me again. which we all know that if you said you wanted to be with me, i wouldnt know what to do. i dont want to be put in the position where i have to chose between you and someone else. because i know i would hurt that person. cause i know i would give it up to be with you. and the fact that i know you would put me in the position pisses me off.
you have no rigth to put me in this position.
i just wish that you would do something.
i know youre afraid of this conversation. so am i. because what if this is something real. what if we screw up and were done forever. i dont want to live with not knowing.
do you kiss all youre exgirlfriends whenever you see them? im not thinking so.
haha sorry if you had to read this and dont get it. but i need to say it even if its to no one.