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I just labeled myself 'the girl who's friend just died of cancer'
that bothers me. thats why i wanna be the girl whos friend is a miraculous cancer survivor. I remember wearing my 'kick cancers ass' remission shirt shopping one time right after michelle remission party. a few checkout ladys asked about it, and i proudly said, 'my best friend had cancer, but its gone now, she beat it'
liek the pastor said, she did beat cancer, shes in heaven now and thats tons better. its better than being on earth without cancer. shes not suffering anymore. cancer didnt win. but for us its liek cancer won. and i know that shes better now. its still hard though.
i just have to concentrate on this: people alwyas commented about michelle always having a smile on her face, and always being cheerful. shes not here anymore. I NEED to do that. i think she would want me to. i wish i could have been happy like that sophomore year, i dont know why i was like that, i could have just sucked it up and been happy and been exciting, and then maybe michelle wouldnt have thought i was soo boring.
i dton know.
my right eye is watering more than the left.. what the heck..
my sister is the only person on yahoo for the umpteethn time to day. theres 5 people on msn, but none that i talk to. and plenty on aol as always, but none that i talk to.
that bothers me. thats why i wanna be the girl whos friend is a miraculous cancer survivor. I remember wearing my 'kick cancers ass' remission shirt shopping one time right after michelle remission party. a few checkout ladys asked about it, and i proudly said, 'my best friend had cancer, but its gone now, she beat it'
liek the pastor said, she did beat cancer, shes in heaven now and thats tons better. its better than being on earth without cancer. shes not suffering anymore. cancer didnt win. but for us its liek cancer won. and i know that shes better now. its still hard though.
i just have to concentrate on this: people alwyas commented about michelle always having a smile on her face, and always being cheerful. shes not here anymore. I NEED to do that. i think she would want me to. i wish i could have been happy like that sophomore year, i dont know why i was like that, i could have just sucked it up and been happy and been exciting, and then maybe michelle wouldnt have thought i was soo boring.
i dton know.
my right eye is watering more than the left.. what the heck..
my sister is the only person on yahoo for the umpteethn time to day. theres 5 people on msn, but none that i talk to. and plenty on aol as always, but none that i talk to.