WRESTLEMANIA23!!!!!
Hi....
What is it about exes that make me want to hurl. I could be doing just dandy, happy and all (like today) and then Bam! random txt message from an ex(also like today) and all of a sudden my stomach cramps and i get nauseous (not unlike today). What can i do but be polite? I know!, ignore her. I usually make it a point not to talk at all to my exes cause really they are just closed chapters in my life and i care not to so much go back and read through them, but to just be content that i got through it and maybe even learned a couple of things. But why do woman incist on ruining my happy days. You would think not talking to someone all of a sudden would give them the impression that they are like the rest and i don't want anything to do with them. I don't mean to sound cruel but hardly any girl has shown me other wise. There are exceptions, and the girls that are my friends fall into that category because A)they are not stupid and b)they aren't crazy...well maybe in their own way, but still the good crazy. Still i can't help but sit here and think, why? why does it always go down like this, is it because i'm never truly honest with any girl i go out with? They all seem to want so much more from me but i can never give them that. Now i ask you, why is that? All my life i've just wanted someone in my life to share my Happy, sad,exciting,geeky, boring, fun moments with and vice versa but everytime it comes down to it, i close myself off from them and only give them the surface of myself and fill in the rest with what i think they want and that usually works but why do i do that and settle for it? Is it because they are usually to into themselves and settle for it because they think that's all to me? Just another nice guy or whatever you wanna call it. What is it i'm looking for? What is it that i haven't found yet, why does every girl i go out with seem great at first but then i quickly lose my interest. What is love? i thought i found it but i was wrong. Maybe it just takes more time?, more experience? more heartache? Maybe i should ask my friends what they think i should be looking for since they know me. Well i guess to summarize this rant, i was super pumped for Wrestlmania 23 today and then the wind got knocked out of my sails and here i am...on livejournal wondering what my ex would txt me for something she know i probaly don't care about enough to call her myself so why would she contact me? I swear, even the most invincible of men can be cut down by the simplest of woman ex. Helen of Troy. BAM! didn't think i would throw some greek mythology at yah, did yah!? Also, i'm not a woman hater, just a firm believer that i know woman better than they know themselves, just not the ones clever enough to trick me into dating them :P
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Post Script. Watch the Showtime series "Dexter". It's disturbingly wonderful. or if your one of those types that likes to read, pick up the book that the series was based off of, "Darkly Dreaming Dexter".
What is it about exes that make me want to hurl. I could be doing just dandy, happy and all (like today) and then Bam! random txt message from an ex(also like today) and all of a sudden my stomach cramps and i get nauseous (not unlike today). What can i do but be polite? I know!, ignore her. I usually make it a point not to talk at all to my exes cause really they are just closed chapters in my life and i care not to so much go back and read through them, but to just be content that i got through it and maybe even learned a couple of things. But why do woman incist on ruining my happy days. You would think not talking to someone all of a sudden would give them the impression that they are like the rest and i don't want anything to do with them. I don't mean to sound cruel but hardly any girl has shown me other wise. There are exceptions, and the girls that are my friends fall into that category because A)they are not stupid and b)they aren't crazy...well maybe in their own way, but still the good crazy. Still i can't help but sit here and think, why? why does it always go down like this, is it because i'm never truly honest with any girl i go out with? They all seem to want so much more from me but i can never give them that. Now i ask you, why is that? All my life i've just wanted someone in my life to share my Happy, sad,exciting,geeky, boring, fun moments with and vice versa but everytime it comes down to it, i close myself off from them and only give them the surface of myself and fill in the rest with what i think they want and that usually works but why do i do that and settle for it? Is it because they are usually to into themselves and settle for it because they think that's all to me? Just another nice guy or whatever you wanna call it. What is it i'm looking for? What is it that i haven't found yet, why does every girl i go out with seem great at first but then i quickly lose my interest. What is love? i thought i found it but i was wrong. Maybe it just takes more time?, more experience? more heartache? Maybe i should ask my friends what they think i should be looking for since they know me. Well i guess to summarize this rant, i was super pumped for Wrestlmania 23 today and then the wind got knocked out of my sails and here i am...on livejournal wondering what my ex would txt me for something she know i probaly don't care about enough to call her myself so why would she contact me? I swear, even the most invincible of men can be cut down by the simplest of woman ex. Helen of Troy. BAM! didn't think i would throw some greek mythology at yah, did yah!? Also, i'm not a woman hater, just a firm believer that i know woman better than they know themselves, just not the ones clever enough to trick me into dating them :P
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Post Script. Watch the Showtime series "Dexter". It's disturbingly wonderful. or if your one of those types that likes to read, pick up the book that the series was based off of, "Darkly Dreaming Dexter".