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[loozer_kidd]

I walk along the sidewalk

With my hand following along the chain link fence

It makes my fingers go numb

I wish the rest of me could be comfortably numb

Music's blaring through my headphones

To drown out the noise inside my head

I barely smile at passersby

I know they won't return the favor

Sometimes when all you want to be is inside your head

…your own little world

You'd like more than anything to have a visitor

Someone who understands what it's like inside your head

'Cause theirs is the same way

Cars rush by me and I wonder where they're going

What the drivers life is like

If they're happy
I light a cigarette and get glares from people as I pass

I don't see what it matters

The only person I'm hurting is myself

So tell me why they should care

Soon I get tired of the dirty looks and pull my hood up over my head

I'm safe from judgment in here

Or at least this way I can't tell if I'm being judged

I peek out form behind my shield every once in a while

Just for curiosities sake

But like the saying goes, "Curiosity killed the cat."

I'll learn sooner or later

For now I just bow my head

Watch my feet take me wherever it is I'm going

It's gotta be better than here

Because frankly, I hate this place

It's so far from what I know

So far from who I am

I stomp out my cigarette on the curb as I cross the street

Midnight street lights don't blink here

City's too busy

Nothin' like home that's for damn sure