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So, yesterday when I got out of school I drove to Trav's. We had a pretty good day. We went and hung out with Bry for a while in Liberty, and then we came home and hung out with Andrew and played video games.
Around 9:00 my mom called and she was crying. I knew it had to be about Gram. She told me everything was getting worse, and that the entire family was at Gram's house. I lost it and started crying. Travis drove me over in his car and stayed at Gram's with me for a while. Nothing happened last night, but everyone is still worried. She isn't getting better, and there's nothing anybody can do to help her, which makes it worse for me, and harder for me to understand. I hate dealing with death, I really do. I'm not sure if I should go see her today or not. It was so hard for me to look at her last night, and this isn't how I want to remember her. I called out of work today just because I want to be here if something happens. I don't want to break down at work, either.
Right now I'm sitting in Trav's room with him. We just got back from cashing my check. We're about to play video games which really helps keep my mind off things. I keep crying at the craziest times. Anyway, Trav has been really supportive and understanding. I keep getting pissy towards him and he takes it so well. Anyway, I might update later, but definitely tomorrow. This blogging thing really helps, too. Why did I ever stop?
Around 9:00 my mom called and she was crying. I knew it had to be about Gram. She told me everything was getting worse, and that the entire family was at Gram's house. I lost it and started crying. Travis drove me over in his car and stayed at Gram's with me for a while. Nothing happened last night, but everyone is still worried. She isn't getting better, and there's nothing anybody can do to help her, which makes it worse for me, and harder for me to understand. I hate dealing with death, I really do. I'm not sure if I should go see her today or not. It was so hard for me to look at her last night, and this isn't how I want to remember her. I called out of work today just because I want to be here if something happens. I don't want to break down at work, either.
Right now I'm sitting in Trav's room with him. We just got back from cashing my check. We're about to play video games which really helps keep my mind off things. I keep crying at the craziest times. Anyway, Trav has been really supportive and understanding. I keep getting pissy towards him and he takes it so well. Anyway, I might update later, but definitely tomorrow. This blogging thing really helps, too. Why did I ever stop?