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It was an early morning for both Gram and I. I didn’t know whether the VON was going to show up or not but apparently they called last night and gram never told me. I ended up calling the office at 9 to see if someone was actually coming and within five minutes of calling the VON arrived at the door. I felt a tad embarrassed but what could I do?! It was an odd day because VON showed up at 9:05 and than the home care showed up five minutes after that to do grams Petri care. It was confusing for Gram who was already in a confused state. She did another no no last night. Instead of taking a clean diaper she reused the one from last night and than put a clean one on top of that. I knew the minute I walked into her room and I asked her why she would do something like that. I told her it’s dirty and plus she can get a serious infection. She never answered me at all she just sat there puzzled while she was taking it off. I’m sorry but things like that gross me out. I have a high tolerance for a lot of crap so to speak but not for stuff like that. So before I head to bed tonight she is changing the diaper before me and the dirty one is going out in the garbage can where she cannot get it. It certainly makes one shake their head. I asked dad to stay here while I went to town with her blood work this morning. I didn’t ask mom because one, I didn’t want to hear the pity me crap from her and I didn’t want the moodiness of her not wanting to be here. I’m not exactly sure what is wrong with mom but I think her nerves may be going. Saturday she called me at 9:22am and I never got off the phone with her until 3:30 that afternoon. She was talking about all kinds of things but one thing that stands in my mind is about her putting dad into a nursing home because she couldn’t care for him. She was saying about him signing something so that could happen. She was crying all the while and I told her that it was no need to worry about such things now. Dad is still working for petes sake, he is still alive last time I checked. I figure this is all coming from me leaving here, she figures she will be alone to deal with things and she is correct. My bro has stayed clear of dealing with any family issues that have arrived and they are now figuring that if I leave than what. I think they were going to rely on me when they got sick but how can they do that when I’m 6 hours away flight in another province?!. Mom also found out the doctors seen something on her bowels, so I think she is freaking over this as well. I don’t know what to think about any of this but I don’t need this right now. I am already overburdened with problems of my own, grams problems and trying to deal with them, on my own. You don’t see me calling people up and telling them all about my problems, I deal with them the best way I can I really don’t need anymore to think about. I know that may sound selfish on my behalf but you know something, I don’t care. My shoulders are weighed down heavy enough and I don’t need anymore, geesh!
Hub called last night, he had a job today as a hot shot. That is what they refer to someone who drives materials to a oil site. Tuesday evening he is going again to Drumheller to work on the oil sites. The men are all really impressed with him, referring to him as awesome. He is in better spirits since he has been working a full week. He will be in much better spirits when he gets his first paycheck. April 15th is the date and I’ll be yelling WOO HOO, money finally lol
I have some people to thank. First person is my dear sweet Marie. Last week I was having a rough time but when I went to the mailbox, I seen this card. When I opened it there were two packets of flower seeds and a very lovely card and a beautiful written note as well. This morning when I went to the mailbox I had another card so I opened it up and it had this silly little verse inside that I had to laugh aloud and some lovely words written by my angel Monique. I want to thank you both. You have no idea how much both these cards mean to me. It has lightened my spirits so much and you have no idea how much it means to me to know there are people who really do care. Thank you Marie and thank you Monique, you both are real Gems. I love you guys truly!!!! My cards are displayed where everyone can see them!! I feel special, he he imagine!!
Hub called last night, he had a job today as a hot shot. That is what they refer to someone who drives materials to a oil site. Tuesday evening he is going again to Drumheller to work on the oil sites. The men are all really impressed with him, referring to him as awesome. He is in better spirits since he has been working a full week. He will be in much better spirits when he gets his first paycheck. April 15th is the date and I’ll be yelling WOO HOO, money finally lol
I have some people to thank. First person is my dear sweet Marie. Last week I was having a rough time but when I went to the mailbox, I seen this card. When I opened it there were two packets of flower seeds and a very lovely card and a beautiful written note as well. This morning when I went to the mailbox I had another card so I opened it up and it had this silly little verse inside that I had to laugh aloud and some lovely words written by my angel Monique. I want to thank you both. You have no idea how much both these cards mean to me. It has lightened my spirits so much and you have no idea how much it means to me to know there are people who really do care. Thank you Marie and thank you Monique, you both are real Gems. I love you guys truly!!!! My cards are displayed where everyone can see them!! I feel special, he he imagine!!