Progressing.
Does it always feels like that when you just had a break up? Like everyone around you are attached? Or is it just me? I think I'm progressing, and I think I'm not going to look back. People might be thinking, I'm the one initiating it, why am I acting like the weak one and all? Reason being, I got soft the last time, and I got back with him. I knew what I wanted was to be single but I chose the otherwise. And land myself in the same pile of shit AGAIN, I gotta be firm, I gotta learn how to stand on my own..
I packed my room, cleared A's stuffs on my shelf.
Then yesterday, I took out all his clothes from my wardrobe.
2 bags, and now what's next?
Pictures on my wall, has to be gone;
and now I've found a reason to use the keypouch that Keith gave me on my birthday.
Then what's next?
Side track a little: After packing, mom noticed that was room was way neater, and stop nagging me! HAHA. is that a good sign?
I didn't knew it was so easy to physically remove one person from your life,
but somehow, its so hard to fight the memories.
Everywhere had him in it, its so hard to hide.
Thankfully I have many people loving me, showering alot more concerns these days.
For example:
Dad went out driving his own car to work, and Mom went to meet Dad, driving another car.
Which leaves me with NO car. BOOHOO. And Dad knew that I was at Chay Yan with my sis, so during dinner time, he drove the car from Peach Garden to Chay Yan (not very near in my opinion) so that I do not have to cab home.
*SUCHA SWEETHEART!*
Mom made me soup, cause she knew I haven't been sleeping well, and enough. And it has been sucha long while since she last dig me outta bed, to drink soup. The extreme measures she took to ensure I gulp it all down is just SUPER CUTE. She stop doing it since I got together with A. I'm glad she's doing it again...
Elly (my sister) has been very concern, asked me time after time to reconsider my decision. Worried that I will regret my choice and all. Brought me out for shopping, and paid for what I wanted. (Only this time, she didn't complain about me spending her money! HAHAHAH) To make me feel better and all, I see her efforts. We ended up buying the same romper (quite formal looking) and it was SUPER CHEAP! Was $149 and cause its sales, its selling at $39! How come do I get to be sooooo close to her only now? How come she find me annoying las time! pfft. But its all fine, as long as I live long enough to enjoy it now. (:
GIRLFS- super dupes nice too. Huiya & Sarah check on me time to time, making sure I was fine, make me talk it all out so that I can feel better. They did that even when they are out with boyfs, or just got back from dinner dates. Its really sweet that they were being there supporting me for what I want. Not really bothered about that was the right thing, just make sure it was what I want and be there for me.
WO AI NI MEN! many many!
Okaye, enough of showing off cause I think if I add more, people are going to start to hate me.
I'm going to print pictures, and redecorate my wall. Chill out some where, and think of what to do.
XOXO.