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Aug 02, 2005 03:04

I can't sleep so I thought I'd write in this thing ( Read more... )

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part 2 looselips August 16 2005, 05:37:30 UTC
i'll start taking quotes now.
"you hate it when people tell you what's bothering them, when they want something more than than just sitting around making you smile."

That is complete bullshit,

"you know i know you better than anyone else"

You really don't and that's the problem

"it broke my heart when we talked and you told me i don't matter anymore, that moment i realized that we're no longer friends."

Yea, it broke my fucking heart to when i realized that we weren't friends. When i had to make the effort to come out and see you all the time. When I saw how you were going out and seeing your friends in New York this summer and I realized that aside from my birthday (which you were late to and when I came back to my house you had gone out to smoke pot and were gone) you had only come to see me once. one other fucking time. I work, go to school and i always made time for you. I fucking asked you to do one thing for me to come out to eat lunch for my birthday you flaked on me. how the fuck is that suppose to make me feel. i know i'm not one of youre cooler friends who goes out to the bars and knows all the good parties but i'm still your fucking friend. I may be boring but take me as i am because I may be boring to you but I know I am not.

"after all i've stuck around through and after we shared 7 years of ours lives together you're pissed off because i'm not that image of the boy you thought you knew."

No you have not stuck by my side. When the going gets tough you have dicthed me instead of talking. This makes it the second time, the first was the whole steve thing. where the fuck were you this whole fucking summer.

Yes, I am pissed off that you are not the image of the boy I once knew. The boy I once knew would have gone to see his mother on mother's day. the boy I know now didn't go because he didn't want his mom to see his nose ring. What kind of person is that. The boy I once knew made time for me even if it was a phone call.

"you need to wake up from you dreams and start living life."

No you wake up from your fucking dreams. you think living the bohemian lifestyle in brooklyn is going to give you shit! is that what you fucking think. I told you what I thought I told you that i'm worried about you and what do you do throw it back in my face. I am fucking living George I am living every single minute every single day. I have a love in my life, friends that care about me and an amazing family. I am earning, learing, growing and loving every single fucking day.

"oh and by the way, i've been smoking since highschool, i never stopped when you got pissed at me back in the day, i just didn't tell you. i like how you never thought i was throwing away my life until i told you."

wow you smoked since high school big deal. the problem is that that it is what defines you now. I have seen you more shit faced then sober this past year.Tell me what you do from day to day. Over the past year all you have done is work at a shitty job that you didn't like and live in a mouse infested house in a shitty spot in brooklyn.
Besides that what else have you done, what have you done to make yourself happy? When I told you you were throwing away your life I was not trying to hurt you I was just trying to express myself. But what did you do bury it and drop me from your life.

And no I won't turn on Doug because in him I have found the best friend and boyfriend that I have always been looking for. None of my other boyfriends have come close.

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