sometimes i wonder..

[looseknots]

i sometimes just wonder every now and then whats the point of ever raising my expectations of finding someone..its the the main thing i think about a lot it just sometimes when being around my friends i feel kinda like the 3rd wheel..i was actually glad brian brought his bestfriend to the races cause then i didn't feel so alone..i'm kinda glad he didnt stay the night cause i'm sure they would have been odd for me and for him to have to share a bed.."you wanna share a bed with tracey?" *blushes* I KNOW I'M A DORK!!
call me strange or whatever but i like watching people and just try to imagine whats running through their head..are they happy? are they lost? are they confused? after knowing what happen to brians friend i cant even start to imagine what all is going through his head..and after what happen to michelles brother i just dont know what to say to that..its just all new to me really knowing that women can be so cruel yet this is something guys do just as bad..but still that doesnt give anyone the right..on top of that matter..just imagine how people feel after something like their wifes leaving them leaves them? i believe that there is someone out there for everyone...change that..almost everyone..i have yet mine yet..anyways i just felt like venting..work comes early..so have a good night journal