things I can't say on my Facebook
I wish I was more into kids. I care about my friends' kids and the kids in my family, but the whole pregnancy/childbirth/childrearing process is less interesting to me than trigonometry, and I feel like a jerk because I'm not more excited with people I care about who are excited about it. Since I have no children of my own I have no experiences to share, no ability to sympathize, and I'm not allowed to have opinions on the subject. With solid plans not to have any children of my own in the future there is no point in storing away other people's stories for later reference, so I'm in the position of having nothing to add to the conversation and nothing to take away from it. It makes me feel like a jerk and a freaky outsider because while everyone else is squeeing over babies I'm just.... not. My friends and family have cool kids and I can enjoy their company but I don't get thrilled at the idea of adding another one. It's a Really Big Deal to people I love and I am happy they are happy but I feel like a crappy friend for not being more excited with them. I hope they know I love and care about them anyway. Seriously, how did I end up with absolutely zero instinct for this?