Taking A Chance: Part 1
Title: Taking A Chance
Author: Loopyem89
Rating: PG
Pairing: Alex/ Olivia
Category: Drama/Angst
Disclaimer: These characters do not belong to me. No infringement intended and no profit will be made from their use.
Summary: Will Olivia take the chance before it's too late.
Author’s Note: Ok so it's been a while since i've written this pairing but thought it was time to get back and do something about it. Forgive me for any mistakes as this one hasn't been checked over by anyone but me.
Taking A Chance
“Liv I know you’re afraid but I’m asking you to take a chance, for us.”
The detective was pacing up and down the steps of the court house, she knew this day would come, it was inevitable. But yet no matter how much she wanted to take that leap of faith, something was holding her back. She stopped to look into those familiar blues eyes and was rooted to the spot, unable to run away. At that moment she wished she could turn back time, go back to before any of this happened and save them both from certain heartbreak.
“Alex I know for certain that I have never felt for anyone the way I feel for you. You are the one thing in my life that feels totally right but I can’t give you what you want.”
Alex let out a shaky breath as she moved to stand before the woman in front of her. She pulled the detective close and rested their foreheads together, her voice but a whisper as she spoke.
“If I’m sure about one thing, it’s that we’re meant to be together. You know it too and it scares the hell out of you. I know because that’s exactly how I felt, I never meant to fall in love with you but I did and now I am here asking you to take the risk and commit to us.”
“Can you be sure you won’t want someone else someday? That maybe one day you’ll stop falling in love and start falling out of love, with me?” The unusual vulnerability in the Olivia’s voice was not missed by the blonde.
Alex took the detective’s face in both hands and gazed directly at her.
“Liv I could ask you the same thing, none of us can know what will happen in the future. All that matters at this moment is the here and now.”
Olivia wrapped her arms around the ADA, breathed in her scent as she held on tight, almost afraid to let go. She was about to say more when the sound of her cell cut in. Relinquishing her hold on Alex she flashed an apologetic look as she flipped the phone open.
“Benson.”
Alex realising that the conversation was probably over for now turned away and took in a breath of fresh air. She pulled her coat tighter around herself as the cold wind bit at her.
“Ok Elliott I’ll be there in 20.”
The detective hesitantly made her way down the steps and was about to dash across the street to her car before she turned and looked back.
“I’m sorry Alex. I just need a little more time, that’s all. Can you give me that?”
The ADA’s expression was one of nothing but sadness as she took one last glance at the detective as she was leaving.
“To think too long about something often becomes its undoing. I can’t wait forever Liv.”
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Alex waited until the sound of footsteps had disappeared before allowing the tears to fall. Not caring that there were others around her, she rested her body against a pillar and tried to bring her emotions under control. The words she had spoken to the detective before were nothing but the truth. She never expected to fall in love with the woman, their encounters had only started out as a way to offer comfort to one another. To provide them with the physical intimacy they both craved, if only for few moments. To know that in the darkness of what they witnessed every day, there was still some light. They had continued it for months but as time passed along, both stopped sneaking out in middle of the night; leisurely breakfasts and dinners were shared and on occasions some nights were just spent in one another’s arms. The reality was that they had been in a relationship for some time; just neither was willing to acknowledge it, until now. Alex wanted to take the risk, redefine their relationship but it was just a matter of trying to convince a reluctant Olivia. She had made her case and now she could only hope that the woman of her affections would let her in.
She wiped away the last of her tears and straightened herself out, the professional façade of the lawyer firmly back in place. She was about to head up into the courthouse when she heard the sound of the gun shot ring from behind her.
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The Detective didn’t have the heart to turn around and look back to where she had left the ADA standing, knowing that if she did she wouldn’t be able to contain the tears and the least thing she needed was to turn up at a crime scene with puffy eyes and have Elliott asking questions. She didn’t need to question her love for Alex, she had known for a while now how strong her feelings were, yet she was afraid, unsure if she could commit herself to a relationship. Her track record left little to be desired for and Alex deserved someone who could give her all the love and attention she deserved. Olivia was not that person and she was prepared to let the blonde go in order to allow her to find happiness.
Reaching into her pocket, she pulled out the keys to the car and was about to get in when she spotted a man and a woman having a somewhat heated argument just down the street. A lover’s quarrel was none of her concern and so she chose to ignore it; that was until she saw the young male raise his fist and strike the woman across the face. She didn’t hesitate to jog towards where they were and raise her badge to identify herself.
“Hey! Detective Benson NYPD. I think you need to calm down sir.”
The look of alarm on his face didn’t go unnoticed by Olivia and she thought he was just going to make a run for it. What she hadn’t been expecting was for the assailant to pull out a gun from behind his jacket and point it in her direction. She barely had time to reach for her own weapon when she heard a shot ring out, followed by the pain of a bullet ripping through her flesh. The force of the shot propelled her backwards onto the street; she heard the screams erupt around her and the man who had the gun briefly appeared in front of eyes before he took off running.
At that moment she found herself looking up towards the clear Manhattan sky, the grey buildings around her feeling more intimidating than ever as they towered above. Her body was numb from either the cold or shock and she was beginning to find it difficult to breath. The noises around her seemed to fade away as she struggled to remain conscious, it was only upon hearing a familiar voice that she willed her eyes to remain open and her mind awake.
“Liv!”
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Alex fought to remain upright as she turned around to see where the shot had come from and saw Olivia drop to the sidewalk. She didn’t think twice as she rushed down the steps and through the city traffic to where the Detective had fallen. The shooter was long gone; she had seen him take off as a couple of near bye officers began to give chase.
“Liv!”
Her eyes were quick to fall upon the blood that had already covered the street and she immediately placed her hands over the bullet wound in the detective’s side, trying desperately to apply pressure and stem the bleeding. Olivia grunted in pain as her breathing became more ragged. A group of on lookers had begun to gather around the two women and Alex shouted at somebody to call a bus.
“It’s ok Liv, just hold on. We’re going to get you to the hospital and everything will be fine, just stay with me.”
Like she had done so many times before, Olivia gazed up into those familiar deep blue eyes. They had conveyed so much warmth and love on those dark nights she hadn’t wanted to spend alone. It was in that moment, there and then that she realized she was no longer afraid. Alex was worth the gamble, she was worth the leap of faith and she couldn’t just let go of the woman she loved. If it didn’t hurt too much she could have laughed at the irony, there was nothing like getting shot to make her recognise that what she had was worth fighting for. As more pain swept through her body she fought to stay awake, she needed to tell Alex how she felt but it was becoming more and more difficult to catch a breath.
"Lex…I’m..I’m sorry.”
“Liv its ok, don’t try and speak, save your energy.”
“No…I…I need you to know…that I was…an idiot. You’re…You’re worth…the risk.”
The detective could hear the sirens getting closer but was unable to remain focused, to stay awake. Her last words were but a whisper as she closed her eyes and gave into darkness.
“Love…you.”
“No Liv, stay with me.”
Alex was once again unable to stop the tears falling; she had to be pulled away as the paramedics came into to work on Olivia. As they carried her into the awaiting bus the ADA made it clear that she was going with them. She grasped hold of the now cold hand that belonged to her lover and willed her to fight. To fight for what they had. This wasn’t the way things were supposed to go, they had come this far and it couldn’t just end like that.
“Come on sweetheart; don’t give in, not now.”