Sunshine and optimism.
Feel so much happier when it's sunny! Yesterday I felt so down and tired. This past few weeks I've gradually gotten more and more sucked back into sugar addiction too (not that the addiction ever goes away, what I mean is, I've been giving into it more and more). I've been having: double choc cookies, millionaries shortbread, bendicks, mars bars and then I started buying myself roses mini boxes and scoffing the box in a day or two. Not good. Not when sugar makes me have palpitations and then crash so badly as I 'come down' that I feel dizzy, drained, lethargic and get pain in my joints, plus weak and achy muscles. It is so evil, that it makes all that happen and yet STILL is so tempting and irresistible. It didn't help seeing box of chocolates Lee has bought his Mum laying around. After eating roses at Lydgate then seeing the box of Thorntons laying there, I just went out and bought myself roses, justifying it to myself 'I've worked hard all week and it's stressful putting up with the building work so I deserve a treat'. I'm going to stop it now though as I felt SHOCKING yesterday, and I was reading back my diary and discovered that I felt just the same the last time I had a big binge like that (which also coincided with my last time of month!). I'm not saying I'm going to stop eating it all together, but I need to make sure when I do 'treat myself' that I don't go overboard. I'll stick to pinching chocolates at work, and just bring home cookies or millionaires shortbread because I can't go TOO crazy on those.
Today I woke up really bunged up in my nose, with my cheeks feeling pressure. Not sure whether it's because I had to sit in same room as cat tree all day, or whether it's all the dust in the air from the building work, or coz I ate too much dairy in form of chocolates, or a mixture of all those things (probably!). I neilmed rinsed and steamed over the popcorn bowl and suddenly started to feel optimistic and quite happy! It was nice, having the smaller bowl, light and on my knee, more comfortable than using the big awkward thing, and I started to feel like- I'd actually ENJOY doing this every day. It makes my face feel fresh afterwards and my skin lovely and soft. Plus, it's meditative because while my head is over the bowl inhaling the steam, I'm focusing mostly on my breathing and the sensations in the moment. I do think and my mind wanders around of course, but I can't be distracted, I can't pick up my phone or log on my computer or do anything other than breathe over the bowl. I do find it relaxing, calming, peaceful. I'm going to do it every day.
It's so silly, how if anything is a little bit inconvenient, I just end up not doing it. Like just because the bigger bowl is a faff to get out from under sink, and then not so comfortable to sit with (too bulky so couldn't have it in lounge on knee), I just ended up hardly ever using it. Now that I've tried out the popcorn bowl and found how convenient and nice that is to use, I will keep using it. That has made me feel more positive! Steaming every day at least once, hopefully twice, should be a benefit.
Couldn't get a doctors appointment today as typically they had no morning ones, only early afternoon and I wouldn't make it back from work in time, so will have to try tomorrow. I'm just going to ask for the 180mg dose and see how I do with that, along with the beconase spray, sterimar at weekends, steaming and neil-med rinsing now and then, maybe just at weekends or when I feel bunged up (which does seem to help, but I can't make up my mind if I like it or not as sometimes it stings afterwards and makes me feel sneezy). I can then leave the antihistamine spray in 'reserve' for if I feel like I might need it now and again. It's still quite early days since my virus to tell whether I would do or not. I also can't be sure if the top of head pain I keep getting isn't tension related so am going to book a back massage asap. I know I'm getting sinus pains and problems, but they might not be the only thing hurting my head; I need to get on top of EVERYTHING to get a clearer and better picture of what I'm dealing with, and what I need to do to help.
Today I woke up really bunged up in my nose, with my cheeks feeling pressure. Not sure whether it's because I had to sit in same room as cat tree all day, or whether it's all the dust in the air from the building work, or coz I ate too much dairy in form of chocolates, or a mixture of all those things (probably!). I neilmed rinsed and steamed over the popcorn bowl and suddenly started to feel optimistic and quite happy! It was nice, having the smaller bowl, light and on my knee, more comfortable than using the big awkward thing, and I started to feel like- I'd actually ENJOY doing this every day. It makes my face feel fresh afterwards and my skin lovely and soft. Plus, it's meditative because while my head is over the bowl inhaling the steam, I'm focusing mostly on my breathing and the sensations in the moment. I do think and my mind wanders around of course, but I can't be distracted, I can't pick up my phone or log on my computer or do anything other than breathe over the bowl. I do find it relaxing, calming, peaceful. I'm going to do it every day.
It's so silly, how if anything is a little bit inconvenient, I just end up not doing it. Like just because the bigger bowl is a faff to get out from under sink, and then not so comfortable to sit with (too bulky so couldn't have it in lounge on knee), I just ended up hardly ever using it. Now that I've tried out the popcorn bowl and found how convenient and nice that is to use, I will keep using it. That has made me feel more positive! Steaming every day at least once, hopefully twice, should be a benefit.
Couldn't get a doctors appointment today as typically they had no morning ones, only early afternoon and I wouldn't make it back from work in time, so will have to try tomorrow. I'm just going to ask for the 180mg dose and see how I do with that, along with the beconase spray, sterimar at weekends, steaming and neil-med rinsing now and then, maybe just at weekends or when I feel bunged up (which does seem to help, but I can't make up my mind if I like it or not as sometimes it stings afterwards and makes me feel sneezy). I can then leave the antihistamine spray in 'reserve' for if I feel like I might need it now and again. It's still quite early days since my virus to tell whether I would do or not. I also can't be sure if the top of head pain I keep getting isn't tension related so am going to book a back massage asap. I know I'm getting sinus pains and problems, but they might not be the only thing hurting my head; I need to get on top of EVERYTHING to get a clearer and better picture of what I'm dealing with, and what I need to do to help.