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As I've said, there is a sheer level of petty in this day and age to hand posting a letter through someone's door when they have 5-6 electronic methods and the in person option available. And I, I'm jut not playing that game.
No, I didn't come in during lockdown because, hey, i have to catch the bus everywhere and im allergic to alcohol so can't use hand sanitiser. I did start coming in after restrictions lifted and i had my vaccinations. So, like, when it was safe and legal to do so.
Also, the aformentioned 5-6 methods of communication were available throughout. And if you check i did everything i was asked to do. Barring getting the date wrong on ONE thing which i fucking apologised for repeatedly.
You're the one who blanked me in person. You're the one who refused to answer my questions for MONTHS and still owes me £50. Yes, i was annoyed on the phone when i rang you because you'd failed to get back to me for a week that time. I cannot know if you're off doing a thing if you don't tell me. And if i then find out you told the other two ladies what am i supposed to think?
I wasn't speaking to you like dirt, i was fucking annoyed because you were stopping me from doing my job. A thing you were harrassing me to do btw. I'm allowed to be annoyed.
Fuck, i had a much worse shouting match with the other two because of you. Your fucking telling people one thing and others another. I admitted i could have done more and wouls try to do better. And as soon as i do? YOU now have fucking problems. That I'm causing 'confusion'. How? By trying to catch up? By asking about things you admit I'm allowed to know? Fuck you. Again, not interested in playing that game. Have fun being in charge.
It's good to know where i stand with you though. I've been there since literally the beginning. I got us some of the best people we've still got. The biggest monetary project we completed was mine. But sure, ask me to put up with the guy who bullied me for months then threatened me 'if you ever contact me again you won't like what i do to you' because i was doimg my job as secretary at that other place. Invite him in after we already refused him a place. I would not ask a single other person to deal with their tormentor on site so why do i have to? Because what he does is apparantly important? Sure. Sure. You won't even do anything about the fact that he just so happens to have started turning up during the week now that i am too. No. It's causing me nightmares again and horrible anxiety and just no. It goes against everything the gardens stands for and fuck you if you think I'm staying to put up with it.
It sucks because i love most of the people there but I'm worth more than this. Take the position i never fucking wanted in the first place. Fix the issue and I'll help with the science but im not stepping a foot back in that place until something is done. And people *will* know why i left. Because fuck it, i know just how much I'm valued there.