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Ever since this morning when I saw this song on my facebook feed, I have been obsessed with it. For the longest time I couldn't figure out why I was obsessed with it. Sure, I love me some Ellie Goulding, but not this much. This song gave me chills and I had it on repeat all day.
I just looked up the lyrics and realized why. Its because the man I'm so deeply in love with, doesn't feel anything towards me anymore. I don't think anyway. He's odd. As my doctor once said, he's just confused in life.
I chased him away by changing so much in just a matter of 6 months it's ridiculous. I went from being a positive, don't give a fuck kind of person to a moody mess of a child. I understand why he left. That's why this song pulls at my heart and gives me those chills. It makes me want to be stronger even though I might not get what I want. There is that possibility though and and I'm going to go for it!