just like fridays of yore

[loolica]

Apparently I am hosting a Friday confessional. anjibobanji gets all credit for the idea.

So.... Confess! Confess!

There aren't enough of us left for me to even bother warning people to play nice.

Comments

[bren_jay]

I can't make this anon, apparently, so I'll keep it pretty tame.

It disturbs me a lot that when I dream, Dev is almost never in them - in my dreams, I don't have a kid. What's worse is that when I do dream about him, we've usually left him somewhere, and I am in no hurry to find him.

Why is he not important enough to be in my dreams? I don't know. Maybe I don't love him enough? Maybe we're not properly bonded? This is my suspicion. Oh, mama guilt - does it know any bounds?

[tracijean]

OMG. I NEVER dream about Ramona and it never occurred to me to feel guilty. I'm mostly glad at least I get a fuckin' break in my subconscious!

[loolica]

Oh, man, Freud would have loved that shit.

[anjibobanji]

it knows no bounds. you seem to be properly besotted with that little cutie.

[bren_jay]

I think I fixed it! I always forget that even if you allow anonymous comments you still have to make it public, not just for friends.

[loolica]

I never dream about Z either. Same as you, I will occasionally be doing something and then realize I've lost her, or was supposed to pick her up after school only now I'm in Patagonia. Sometimes, I'll get all freaked out for a minute, but then usually I'll be distracted by something else and not care any more. When she was little it made me feel terrible, but now I'm like Traci Jean, just glad I get a break while I'm sleeping. I actually think it's to keep you sane.

it knows no bounds

[bren_jay]

there will be guilt to be had for the rest of your life. eventually, you will have retrospective guilt. it sucks because you can't even fix that. it's over.

all of my dreams involving my children were horrific nightmares. i've never told anyone the content.

Re: it knows no bounds

[bren_jay]

I've had a lot of those, too. It is frightening to think that my subconscious could come up with the scenarios it has.