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yesterday sucked big butt! first i took a pain pill hopin i would be a little more calm today, but no. i just felt sick. ok got the dye injection and a differ doctor did it then last time. and i told him, ok you look young, i dont know you, i dont trust you. but come to find out he was really nice and numbed my joint up alot more than the other guy but it still hurt like crazy when the needle was in the joint. like they have to leave the needle in and take xrays to make sure its in the right spot. so your lyin there for like 5 minutes with this big needle in your shoulder...and OMG the nurse was holdin my arm cuz i was havin a panic attack and shakin really bad and SHE MOVED MY ARM with the needle in and i screamed and wanted to kick her. but she was holdin my leg down too. oh i was not happy at all. but besides that....my knee is still botherin me terribly, cant even straighten it out all the way. im going to get blookwork soon to figure out whats wrong with me. last night derek got home real late. went to bed like 2 and this morning i was up a 630 cuz derek had to go to work at 7 and i couldnt go back to sleep. i gotta be there and 10 anyways. so im still tryin to find another job. i need a sit down job like so bad now. cuz my pain isnt going to go away