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This season, I’m thinking, sunshine and bright lights at night, early night, I'm thinking of a change of clothes, I'm thinking of a change of venue, I'm thinking three winters in a row, I’m thinking of acting like I'm more than I am, I’m thinking of changing my flight, forwarding my luggage, let's go to the coast, I’m thinking of him flying down here, I’m thinking of flying out there, move to the next place, the next dream, the next dive bar, I’m thinking all the good ones are taken, I’m thinking when did that ever stop you, I'm thinking SFO and LAX and IAD and BWI and SeaTac and waking up in Madrid, I’m thinking about dying my hair, I’m thinking about changing my look, whatever that is, I’m thinking of the Chinatown bus, it hasn't flipped over yet with me on it, I’m thinking about the graffiti on the walls of the Septa station stairs, I'm thinking I know who did it, touch it every time I pass by, I’m thinking when will I pass by him next, I'm thinking of girls, I'm thinking of hot sweaty jungles, forgotten and alone, everything cools down at night, I’m thinking nightgowns, I'm thinking about a new dress, this could be my last silly school formal, I’m thinking of details for graduation, let's ignore the big picture, I’m thinking of the night club scene that I don't know, I’m thinking of getting that ring custom made, I’m thinking of getting those dresses custom made, scoring free jeans with stretch from the pile, I'm thinking that justifies a Velvet Burger burger, I’m thinking I own this town, I’m thinking I can show you around it, I’m thinking I've never been here before, I’m thinking bespoke, I'm thinking fashion for someone else, someday costs, I'm thinking let's climb that and that, move to the country, high rise condominium, I'm thinking of the stores on Thanon Lad Phrao, on Walnut, on Princes, I'm thinking of the smile of the daddy cat in the long wool coat, I'm thinking of gold diggers for silver foxes, I'm thinking caffeine and breeding, I’m thinking this town isn’t big enough for the both of us, I’m thinking next week I leave, don't come round anymore, I’m thinking Don't Go Back To Rockville, I’m thinking how to avoid being lonely, I’m thinking about game, I’m thinking about changing the game I've been playing, who's going to keep me warm, I’m thinking about suggestions of Thirtsy Thursday and Topless Tuesday, I’m thinking of pool parties, I’m thinking I want to write about it, I’m thinking of a quick trip back to Vegas, I’m thinking about meeting him in the city again, heavy coats, kisses, I’m thinking swing jazz and celtic sounds, I’m thinking let's move to the next place, this is dead, I'm thinking the same bar tomorrow, I'll never see you again, I’m thinking I need to read, I'm thinking I'll see that beanpole at the gala, I met someone from there too, I'm from there too, I'm thinking I'll leave with someone else, I’m thinking about hitting the mountain, I'm thinking of blowing money, on memories or pictures, fitting and fly, I'm thinking of shredding, I’m thinking of blondes, I’m thinking about the skinny kid with no sleeves, telling me I know strangers, sleeping in my bed, I’m thinking about how I told him I wasn't going to lead him on, and by doing so may have lead him on, I’m thinking of going all in, I'm thinking have one foot out the door, I’m thinking about hitting the range, Berrettas and Glocks, head on chest in bed, I'm thinking I've come a long way, and that makes me less scared for the future, I’m thinking I don't deserve this, I’m thinking I mean something, doesn't that mean something