An entry? Oh em gee zee
Well my summer so far, has surely been an intriguing blend of photography, substance abuse, San Francisco and friends. Before I delve into a long involved entry about what I've been doing, here is the most important thing:
I am leaving for Innerspark on July 14th, I will be back August 11th.
On August 14th, I am leaving to Portland, Seattle and Vancouver Vacation with my Family and will be back August 20th
the rest of the entry is split up into different sections on different subjects
I 've been taking a photo class on Thursday nights in San Francisco for the last six weeks and I feel like now I have a better understanding of exposure, white balance, lighting then I have ever have before. I finally got an opportunity to take photos of Audrey but I dont think they were as good as they could have been. I also have taken some long exposures as well as shots from Lawerence Hall and I have experimented with HDR. I hope I get a whole shit load better at Innerspark.
I always feel constricted by the quality of my equipment but I feel like I am learning more and more, and that the experience I acquire at innerspark may help get an internship or a paid job as an assistant to a photographer.
You can view my photographs on my Flickr
I
've been writing my responses for AP English and they are quite mediocre, I plan to edit them at some point,I wish I understood rhetoric more, tone, context and etc is confusing at this point in my life. Alot of this is really dry and the idea of School just depresses me. My grades were not up to my satisfaction at all and I got a 3.17 GPA, here were my grades:
Spanish 6: A
World Literature B: B
Advanced Bio B: B
World History B: A
Algebra 2: D
Proctoring: A
The only thing that really fucked me over was my Algebra 2 grade, I have to take the fucking class again and if I had just gotten a C I would have never had to take Math again. I realize now that my GPA from Sophmore year is so mediocre that my hopes for a GPA out of Highschool higher then a 3.5 are completely over. My dreams have been sort of shattered for the East Coast, I am contemplating the UC Options even though I really dont want to go to a UC at all, but at the same time I dont want to be in horrendous debt from art school. Its sad, the tuition for most art schools is more then the median income of most photographers! Maybe I should get into Web Design before Its too late, if I get into something computer related maybe I wont be screwed over and make shit money.
but I am still getting too ahead of myself, I really just think that I keep thinking I'm smarter then I am.
I've been hanging out with a bunch of fun college kids Alejandro, Sergio, Emily B, Clio, Nick Golden, Harris Lapiroff, Sophia Elson and others Ive been hanging around with them in San Francisco and Berkeley and mostly been smoking pot and drinking and hanging out. I went and got stoned and went to the Exploratorium and with a bunch of people and then went and partied at Harris's house and drank a bunch of crappy beer and smoked more weed.
They are a fine group of people, all different and interesting in their own way and all loosely associated. They regard me most of the time as equal to them in age, and usually forget that I am three years younger then them. I have fun with them and they are refreshing because they are alot more mature then people I encounter in my grade, not to say I dont like people in my grade or in Highschool at all, but its fun to be with people with different dispositions then my usual peers.
Michael is off in Israel and Asher is at Newman. They left pretty early in the summer but I did see a little bit of them. Michael seems to be doing well he wrote a facebook note about it from Israel. Asher called me randomly from Camp and he seemed fine, it kinda sucks that the next time I will see any of them will be the last week of summer.
Eli is no more, I haven't talked to him in about 6 weeks, and its gonna stay that way, by some freak occurance he calls me, the world will explode right as he pushes the last digit to my phone number.
Emily contacted me via Facebook a couple days ago, she's a large reminder to think about who you date before you date them, she's all kinds of annoying and stupid.
Robin is talking to me again, for some reason.. and by talking to me, she makes eye contact with me and says hello. Its kinda funny that sense both of us went out with each other, I've become extremely metro and indie and she's become extremely punk and well punk. PUNX PUNX PUNX!
I feel like that my self esteem problems limit me from liking anything I do, or liking myself at all. I think because of my insecurities is why I've become so highly interested in Fashion, because wearing nice clothes and having a fashion sense makes me feel better about myself, I think i'm too fat, and I have no muscle mass what so ever, the only excercise I get is by walking alot.
I dont get good enough grades so that makes me feel stupid, I just feel like I'm not good at anything.
My extra curriculars are sort of falling apart, I got sick one day and I failed two KALX engagements simultaneously, show 3 and teaching a class, I turned in my leave of absence form today, and I was afraid to face them so I didn't speak to anyone.
Tech is so so dead but I dont really care at all. I could use a job though.
I need to quit smoking cigarettes, and soon. I'm gonna have to buy some for Innerspark, and smoke them somewhere there, I'm extremely addicted and today I couldn't breath that well when I was walking around, and the laxative quality of them makes it even worse.
I'm not really addicted to pot, I turned it down tonight because It was boring me, alcohol is ok too but really cigarettes are my main addiction.
oh nicotine.
I am leaving for Innerspark on July 14th, I will be back August 11th.
On August 14th, I am leaving to Portland, Seattle and Vancouver Vacation with my Family and will be back August 20th
the rest of the entry is split up into different sections on different subjects
I 've been taking a photo class on Thursday nights in San Francisco for the last six weeks and I feel like now I have a better understanding of exposure, white balance, lighting then I have ever have before. I finally got an opportunity to take photos of Audrey but I dont think they were as good as they could have been. I also have taken some long exposures as well as shots from Lawerence Hall and I have experimented with HDR. I hope I get a whole shit load better at Innerspark.
I always feel constricted by the quality of my equipment but I feel like I am learning more and more, and that the experience I acquire at innerspark may help get an internship or a paid job as an assistant to a photographer.
You can view my photographs on my Flickr
I
've been writing my responses for AP English and they are quite mediocre, I plan to edit them at some point,I wish I understood rhetoric more, tone, context and etc is confusing at this point in my life. Alot of this is really dry and the idea of School just depresses me. My grades were not up to my satisfaction at all and I got a 3.17 GPA, here were my grades:
Spanish 6: A
World Literature B: B
Advanced Bio B: B
World History B: A
Algebra 2: D
Proctoring: A
The only thing that really fucked me over was my Algebra 2 grade, I have to take the fucking class again and if I had just gotten a C I would have never had to take Math again. I realize now that my GPA from Sophmore year is so mediocre that my hopes for a GPA out of Highschool higher then a 3.5 are completely over. My dreams have been sort of shattered for the East Coast, I am contemplating the UC Options even though I really dont want to go to a UC at all, but at the same time I dont want to be in horrendous debt from art school. Its sad, the tuition for most art schools is more then the median income of most photographers! Maybe I should get into Web Design before Its too late, if I get into something computer related maybe I wont be screwed over and make shit money.
but I am still getting too ahead of myself, I really just think that I keep thinking I'm smarter then I am.
I've been hanging out with a bunch of fun college kids Alejandro, Sergio, Emily B, Clio, Nick Golden, Harris Lapiroff, Sophia Elson and others Ive been hanging around with them in San Francisco and Berkeley and mostly been smoking pot and drinking and hanging out. I went and got stoned and went to the Exploratorium and with a bunch of people and then went and partied at Harris's house and drank a bunch of crappy beer and smoked more weed.
They are a fine group of people, all different and interesting in their own way and all loosely associated. They regard me most of the time as equal to them in age, and usually forget that I am three years younger then them. I have fun with them and they are refreshing because they are alot more mature then people I encounter in my grade, not to say I dont like people in my grade or in Highschool at all, but its fun to be with people with different dispositions then my usual peers.
Michael is off in Israel and Asher is at Newman. They left pretty early in the summer but I did see a little bit of them. Michael seems to be doing well he wrote a facebook note about it from Israel. Asher called me randomly from Camp and he seemed fine, it kinda sucks that the next time I will see any of them will be the last week of summer.
Eli is no more, I haven't talked to him in about 6 weeks, and its gonna stay that way, by some freak occurance he calls me, the world will explode right as he pushes the last digit to my phone number.
Emily contacted me via Facebook a couple days ago, she's a large reminder to think about who you date before you date them, she's all kinds of annoying and stupid.
Robin is talking to me again, for some reason.. and by talking to me, she makes eye contact with me and says hello. Its kinda funny that sense both of us went out with each other, I've become extremely metro and indie and she's become extremely punk and well punk. PUNX PUNX PUNX!
I feel like that my self esteem problems limit me from liking anything I do, or liking myself at all. I think because of my insecurities is why I've become so highly interested in Fashion, because wearing nice clothes and having a fashion sense makes me feel better about myself, I think i'm too fat, and I have no muscle mass what so ever, the only excercise I get is by walking alot.
I dont get good enough grades so that makes me feel stupid, I just feel like I'm not good at anything.
My extra curriculars are sort of falling apart, I got sick one day and I failed two KALX engagements simultaneously, show 3 and teaching a class, I turned in my leave of absence form today, and I was afraid to face them so I didn't speak to anyone.
Tech is so so dead but I dont really care at all. I could use a job though.
I need to quit smoking cigarettes, and soon. I'm gonna have to buy some for Innerspark, and smoke them somewhere there, I'm extremely addicted and today I couldn't breath that well when I was walking around, and the laxative quality of them makes it even worse.
I'm not really addicted to pot, I turned it down tonight because It was boring me, alcohol is ok too but really cigarettes are my main addiction.
oh nicotine.