Jasmin
I've been told that the only way that you can successfully solve a problem is to understand whats being asked and then taking the neccessary actions that are required in resolving the issue. I started asking myself that question after spending last night with Jasmin. She does something to me that no other girl has ever done which is truly inspire me and make me think. She says that I have so much talent and that I can do so much and I know and can feel she truly believes it. I suppose the amount of inspiration and motivation I have is limited due to the broken home environment that I have grown up in. What makes it easier for Jasmin and myself is that she comes from some what of one herself and still has made herself successful. I'm looking at our relationship now as starting off fresh and new. This time instead of our relationship being based on sex, I'd like to develop an actual relationship with her because she is someone who pushes me to do the right thing and helps me to avoid most of the wrong things. I'm tired of the gang life and hanging out with the boys on the street corner. A lot of them I suppose take it to heart when I tell them that the only thing the street is going to do for them is land them in jail, but who am I to tell anyone what to do right? Atleast I'm sure thats how they think of it. What the gang life used to do for me such as provide me with a sense of family, protection and care has faded. I've come to realize everyone talks a talk and that most of the time its your boys that are the ones planning and scheming on you. I want nothing to do with it anymore. Sure some of these guys call me out on it, but why should I care what anyone thinks about me, particularly someone who is most likely going to end up landing in jail before the year is over. I'm to smart to be involved and even associating myself with some of these guys. What I really need to do is make things right with Jasmin this time around. She keeps me out of trouble, for the most part anyways.