the potential you'll be, that you'll never see
so. I slept in my bed for the first time in about 3 weeks. though I slept on the floor. does that say much?
I do not do well when I am alone. My mind wanders, I cannot find solace by myself, I hate thinking about things. There are things in my past that I would much rather forget, I am given the opportunity to forget them when I am around others. Not when I am alone.
Insecurity hits me hard. I do not like who I am.
I do not want a relationship...I could not handle it now. Though, I want to mean something to someone. I am missing that meaning. I doubt I meant much, but atleast it was something. Now I am nothing, I feel worthless.
[I hurt him. I did not mean to, did I make him think something different? He was just the opposite of what I was used to, it felt good to hear someone care about me. It's my fault. Though I cannot apologize for it...I am sorry. I hope you feel better.]
I do not do well when I am alone. My mind wanders, I cannot find solace by myself, I hate thinking about things. There are things in my past that I would much rather forget, I am given the opportunity to forget them when I am around others. Not when I am alone.
Insecurity hits me hard. I do not like who I am.
I do not want a relationship...I could not handle it now. Though, I want to mean something to someone. I am missing that meaning. I doubt I meant much, but atleast it was something. Now I am nothing, I feel worthless.
[I hurt him. I did not mean to, did I make him think something different? He was just the opposite of what I was used to, it felt good to hear someone care about me. It's my fault. Though I cannot apologize for it...I am sorry. I hope you feel better.]