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[lookinoureyes]

i have told him that i long to be beautiful
and i am not referring to the beauty that comes
from mac makeup or maybelline products
although there are days when i crave this as well
how can i not, for i am indeed a female
but what i really am trying to get out
when i say these words
is that i long to be made whole
for him to make me new
to have all the peices of who i am
come together, and make something, beautiful
but i am filled with every human insecurity
followed around by thoughts from a past
that on days i wish, as many of you do, did not exist
but as i have been told over and over again
by many women and many men,
beauty, will always lie in my self confidence
but what they do not understand
is that i am accustomed with almost every fatal flaw know to my fellow man
and yet you somehow, in some strang way
which i do not understand
you love past these things
you love me through them
and love me for them
and i am struck with the idea
that there is purpose
and reason
and value
in these shortcomings
value that only you can see
but i trust will one day be revealed to me