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:-( I need to write about this in my journal because I'm afraid to say it out loud. I'm afraid to admit that I'm sick. I never reached "100%" when recovering from surgery....I was still having some bleeding and irritation but the doctor kept assuring me that it was from the suture line and the staples inside. But tonight, I got very sick. There was a lot of blood and it brought back horrible memories. I just sat down and cried. This is NOT supposed to be happening. I went through all of this so that I wouldn't have to deal with this anymore. I don't understand why my body just refuses to get better. This surgery is a "cure"....why is my body rejecting it?? I'm just more frustrated than anything. I've been telling my doctor about the bleeding all along, but he didn't do anything about it...And now look where that got me. They told me I have to wait it out until January...See if things stop on their own. If not, we'll then do something about it. GREAT! just what i want to do. wait until right before I'm about to leave for school, run some tests, and tell me the surgery failed. Wouldn't that be wonderful? Screw doctors and screw being sick.