I Posted This in my Other Journal + Wanted to put it in Here Too
Have A little FAITH
So I've been thinking a lot about my surgery tonight....Because that's what happens when there's nothing else to do. And I was also thinking a lot about these past four years. Since I got sick, i've slowly been losing my faith...faith in life, in myself, and just losing faith in "faith." It's been hard for me to understand why this had to happen to me. It's hard for me to understand why "the one" who is supposed to be watching over me, let this happen. But then, I was going through some old stuff and I found my old bible from sunday school.....and then I looked up at something that I have on my wall that I haven't looked at in a while. it was kinda comforting to read.
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path ofhis life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why, when I needed you most, you would leave me."The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."
So I've been thinking a lot about my surgery tonight....Because that's what happens when there's nothing else to do. And I was also thinking a lot about these past four years. Since I got sick, i've slowly been losing my faith...faith in life, in myself, and just losing faith in "faith." It's been hard for me to understand why this had to happen to me. It's hard for me to understand why "the one" who is supposed to be watching over me, let this happen. But then, I was going through some old stuff and I found my old bible from sunday school.....and then I looked up at something that I have on my wall that I haven't looked at in a while. it was kinda comforting to read.
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path ofhis life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why, when I needed you most, you would leave me."The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."