and I am done with my graceless heart

[lookingforwater]

Right.

Okay.

We’re gonna try this again.

I’ve started a tumblr for like, poetry and pictures and suchlike, because why not. And since I already have the alert on my google calendar to update my queue once a week, I may as well parley that into some kind of regular update. Not for you all, mind; for me, because I kind of miss this, all the shouting

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[lookingforwater]

I guess so, re: the fandom thing, but recently I've been aware of how much flak fandom gets from outside fandom circles - because omg, hdu get invested in fictional properties! esp. fictional properties that are not adult and sophisticated! - and I've reached the point where instead of engaging with people on the issue, I'd rather just say "Yep, I'm an immature woman-child with emotional issues. What of it?" because it's easier and I'm tired of justifying things that make me happy.

If I want to write an essay explaining how Tomoe Yukishiro is a christ figure than I will, and you don't have to approve, but neither do you have the right to stop me.

Altho there's probably an essay in this thing we do, that I've noticed lately, where we sneer at and disclaim things that bring honest and uncomplicated joy to people because they're insufficiently high-brow. Like recently, out here in Seattle, they destroyed an old arcade/laser tag arena/fun park to erect a "sculpture garden" of Chihuly* blown-glass bongs. Because the dude who runs the Space Needle wants to be an Important Cultural Landmark. And there's no merit in childish things, even if they still bring genuine joy to people. I dunno what you'd call it, a fear of sincerity, a fear of retaining a child's ability to invest wholeheartedly in something that moves us emotionally even if it is dumb and doesn't deserve that kind of faith.

And yet... we do it anyway, so why have we decided it's something shameful?

/sense, I make none of it

*he's not even a good artist, dammit

[danalwyn]

I don't think there's any point in justifying the things that make us happy, after all, they make us happy, and anyone who doesn't understand that, or can't figure out how it could make you happy usually isn't worth talking to. And I don't think it has anything to do with meaning, after all you can find deep meaning on the back of a milk carton if you can spin it out well enough. Figuring what is what seems to tell us more about ourselves then it whatever we're speaking of. If others can't understand that, usually they aren't worth talking to.

The worst thing someone can do though is try to use what someone else likes to judge their maturity level. That seems to me to be the root cause of all the problems I've had with "high-brow" appreciation. Just because someone likes something that is judged as "low-brow" doesn't mean that they are incapable of appreciating subtleties and nuances, or that they don't have more interests, but it seems to be some kind of flag that people use to judge others for no good reason.

Shorter version, yeah, people are stupid. At least it seems like you've figured out how to deal with it.