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This has been a crappy week, with an even crappier weekend...
And it ends with rain, which I find fitting since it felt like the sky was crying the tears that I didn't want to let out. For a while I was trying to hide from it, running to my car and ducking in fast, then driving through the streets trying to see through the pouring rain on the windshield and avoiding the large puddles that formed...I was soaked, my books and papers were wet and all I wanted to do was take a shower...and in my shower it hit me...instead of avoiding it, I should be in it. I went for a run and remembered how much I love running in the rain. I splashed through every puddle that was large enough...rain was washing my sweat off as I ran almost as if it were cleansing my very soul...for the briefest of moments, my mind was clear for the first time since I can remember....
and now I'm back to my loneliness...
And it ends with rain, which I find fitting since it felt like the sky was crying the tears that I didn't want to let out. For a while I was trying to hide from it, running to my car and ducking in fast, then driving through the streets trying to see through the pouring rain on the windshield and avoiding the large puddles that formed...I was soaked, my books and papers were wet and all I wanted to do was take a shower...and in my shower it hit me...instead of avoiding it, I should be in it. I went for a run and remembered how much I love running in the rain. I splashed through every puddle that was large enough...rain was washing my sweat off as I ran almost as if it were cleansing my very soul...for the briefest of moments, my mind was clear for the first time since I can remember....
and now I'm back to my loneliness...