Exercise and Stuff
I miss going to the gym and just doing any kind of exercise. The only exercise I get right now is when I clean the house and when I go grocery shopping. It's weird to go from running throughout the week to almost nothing. I miss having the legs of a runner. I miss a lot of things. Even with eating right, I've gained weight in places I haven't seen before. Even when I was heavier, before the weight watchers days, I did not see weight distributed in the places I see I now. I know it's okay though because I'm 7 1/2 months pregnant. Of course, I worry about whether or not it will take me a long time to get back to the body I had about 8 months ago. I've thought about it a lot because different women I talk to say that a pregnant woman's body never goes back to the pre-pregnancy body. Certain things may not bounce back, and I expect that, but I also have OCD, not the ocd that one throws around when he/she says, "I'm a little ocd because I like things a certain way," but diagnosed OCD. There are disadvantages to having OCD but also advantages. For one thing, when an obsessive or intrusive thought enters my brain, I feel the compulsion to do a certain behavior, and when it came to weight and health, I did really well because I was so obsessed, not with what I looked like to other people, but how I felt about myself. OCD can be an inward disorder, and it definitely is for me. I guess what I'm getting at is that I have faith in myself that I will be able to return to the ME I knew 9 months ago. I know it will not be immediate because it took time, effort, and work the first time I decided to change my lifestyle to a healthy one.
I took care of my sister when I was 12 from the time she was born until I moved away. My parents worked and generally were too exhausted to do their jobs as parents and left too many things up to a 12 yr. old, which helped me to NOT get pregnant when I was a teenager, like I wanted to anyway, but that's besides the point. My sister cried, cried, cried, and cried some more. Nothing soothed her. I thought I was going to lose my mind. The only thing that worked was when I danced around her and did silly "jumping around" things. Not much has changed. I still do those things now at 30 yrs. old. Sure I was exhausted, but to maintain sanity I did anything, which I know will carry over to my own daughter. If I revert back to those days, then I know losing weight will be no problem.
The first few months, I'll be exhausted and sleep deprived, but after that I will be moving my ass so much trying to keep her content. I'm not saying that every woman should be doing that because we're all different. We all experience pregnancy, childbirth, parenting, and just being a woman in different ways. I just know ME and think about my experience taking care of an infant. I say that, but my sister was not my daughter and I was 12, so I may throw all of what I said out the window when Audrey is born.
I know I shouldn't be worried about these things right now, but I can't help it--OCD.
I took care of my sister when I was 12 from the time she was born until I moved away. My parents worked and generally were too exhausted to do their jobs as parents and left too many things up to a 12 yr. old, which helped me to NOT get pregnant when I was a teenager, like I wanted to anyway, but that's besides the point. My sister cried, cried, cried, and cried some more. Nothing soothed her. I thought I was going to lose my mind. The only thing that worked was when I danced around her and did silly "jumping around" things. Not much has changed. I still do those things now at 30 yrs. old. Sure I was exhausted, but to maintain sanity I did anything, which I know will carry over to my own daughter. If I revert back to those days, then I know losing weight will be no problem.
The first few months, I'll be exhausted and sleep deprived, but after that I will be moving my ass so much trying to keep her content. I'm not saying that every woman should be doing that because we're all different. We all experience pregnancy, childbirth, parenting, and just being a woman in different ways. I just know ME and think about my experience taking care of an infant. I say that, but my sister was not my daughter and I was 12, so I may throw all of what I said out the window when Audrey is born.
I know I shouldn't be worried about these things right now, but I can't help it--OCD.