AHHHHHHHHHHH
Went pop bottling with Jessica today. Funny that people out of high school can still get away with that. It reminds me of a funny story my former mentor once told. Ms. Lutz, middle school band teacher, once told us that bottle collectors in New York make more money than she does each year yet they still live on stoops...I just remember laughing my ass off when she told me this. While we're on the subject of teachers...
So I think I really am going to be a teacher. I would have so much fun creating little projects for everyone to do. Not to mention the fact that I don't necessarily COUNT on the idea that I will spend forever in the profession that I go to school for. That is the primary reason that I am moving to California--to make a life for myself by doing things MY WAY...and by "life for myself" I mean in the writing or movie biz.
Speaking of California, I have EXACTLY 2 weeks until I go!!!!!!!!!! That's the main reason why my subject for this and every entry until I leave is "AHHHHH!" Ha.
I am so scared to go, really I am. Part of me is just so excited, but on the other hand I will have no one out there who gives a shit. MAIN GOAL: MAKE THE WHOLE WORLD GIVE A SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had a blinding headache all day today due to NO COFFEE and NO CHOCOLATE. Ha, pretty healthy for an 18 year old.
I realized today how FUCKED UP Josh is in the head. How on earth could he INSIST on both Jessica and I coming to the lakehouse that night? At least Jessica tried to get out of it--but for Josh to honestly torment me like that, and to put Jessica in a situation like that??? He's SICK, that's what he is. I remember the looks on both of their faces that night. Jessica looked guilty. Josh? He looked like he got away with murder and was ecsatic. I even remember Josh shooting her a glance when we first got out of the car and she shot him one...I thought maybe he was just checking her out. He took me into the laundry room while Jessica sat at the counter and he acted like that was the first time he'd seen her close up. "She's OK I guess," he said, "Let's have a THREESOME!" and I was like, "Eeew, gross Josh..." but I could sense he was acting strange. He is honestly the most fucked up person I have ever met and to think that I spent 3 years as his girlfriend. Funny how sometimes I forget what it was like.
Don't worry Jess, the above statement isn't there for any other reason than to rant about Josh's insaneness.
I NEED to transform myself into a gorgeous person. I need to pull a Nicole Richie.
Vanessa is like the cutest friend ever. When finding herself in an encounter with Josh, she saw his truck outside with Kendall inside. Immediately she thought back to how I had cried about Kendall's beauty, and thought, "Ha, you lost weight...NOW YOU'RE GOING TO GAIN IT BACK BY EATING ALL THIS PIZZA!" Then she filled the bag with extra cream cheese dip. It's funny that she would do that. She has no reason to hate Kendall--she doesn't even know the girl. But, she knew that the girl caused me some heartache, and so she lashed out...I love Vanessa! :)
I hope my friends notice when I do cute stuff like that.
So I think I really am going to be a teacher. I would have so much fun creating little projects for everyone to do. Not to mention the fact that I don't necessarily COUNT on the idea that I will spend forever in the profession that I go to school for. That is the primary reason that I am moving to California--to make a life for myself by doing things MY WAY...and by "life for myself" I mean in the writing or movie biz.
Speaking of California, I have EXACTLY 2 weeks until I go!!!!!!!!!! That's the main reason why my subject for this and every entry until I leave is "AHHHHH!" Ha.
I am so scared to go, really I am. Part of me is just so excited, but on the other hand I will have no one out there who gives a shit. MAIN GOAL: MAKE THE WHOLE WORLD GIVE A SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had a blinding headache all day today due to NO COFFEE and NO CHOCOLATE. Ha, pretty healthy for an 18 year old.
I realized today how FUCKED UP Josh is in the head. How on earth could he INSIST on both Jessica and I coming to the lakehouse that night? At least Jessica tried to get out of it--but for Josh to honestly torment me like that, and to put Jessica in a situation like that??? He's SICK, that's what he is. I remember the looks on both of their faces that night. Jessica looked guilty. Josh? He looked like he got away with murder and was ecsatic. I even remember Josh shooting her a glance when we first got out of the car and she shot him one...I thought maybe he was just checking her out. He took me into the laundry room while Jessica sat at the counter and he acted like that was the first time he'd seen her close up. "She's OK I guess," he said, "Let's have a THREESOME!" and I was like, "Eeew, gross Josh..." but I could sense he was acting strange. He is honestly the most fucked up person I have ever met and to think that I spent 3 years as his girlfriend. Funny how sometimes I forget what it was like.
Don't worry Jess, the above statement isn't there for any other reason than to rant about Josh's insaneness.
I NEED to transform myself into a gorgeous person. I need to pull a Nicole Richie.
Vanessa is like the cutest friend ever. When finding herself in an encounter with Josh, she saw his truck outside with Kendall inside. Immediately she thought back to how I had cried about Kendall's beauty, and thought, "Ha, you lost weight...NOW YOU'RE GOING TO GAIN IT BACK BY EATING ALL THIS PIZZA!" Then she filled the bag with extra cream cheese dip. It's funny that she would do that. She has no reason to hate Kendall--she doesn't even know the girl. But, she knew that the girl caused me some heartache, and so she lashed out...I love Vanessa! :)
I hope my friends notice when I do cute stuff like that.