The Days Roll on By.......

[looking2tomorro]

You know...the curse of being an outcast is being glued to realism. I have carried this stigma for most of my life. This situation is weighing heavily upon me and I feel so (god forgive me to be torturing this cliche') but confused. This is, indeed, a startling and quite possibly, life-changing situation. My so called "healthy" mind isn't at all what it should be. I am dwelling in the wrong places. I am saying the wrong things. Could it be that I am chasing a lost cause? The thought always haunts me to the bone. So, how can I, a somewhat "rational" human being...ask you to identify with me? It would be rude of me to request that. And It would be too much for you to do that.

Should I just forget it and be happy I have so many friends and family members who love me? Then why am I feeling this gentle breeze flowing through the hole in my heart?

I need some guidance