Ugh

[lookinbackntime]

So lately I've been feeling really shitty about myself...like my appearance. I think it's mostly because of Sky...not that he tells me that, just the need to measure up to how he thinks I look. He's always telling me how beautiful I am and how I have "perfect curves" and such a nice body...but when I look in the mirror all I see is fat. I feel like sometimes he says really nice things but says them just to make me feel good. I honestly dont think of myself as looking perfect and I'm not sure how he can. I weigh almost as much as him, if not the same and it makes me feel like shit.

I want to start exercising and eating better but nobody supports me or encourages it. Everyone just says I'm crazy, but I'm serious and I want to do this. I just wish I had some motivation or encouragement.