:'(
I dont know what to think anymore.
Sky and I finally talked about our future and s far, it's not looking so hot. He pretty much told me once he leaves for college he's cutting himself off from everyone he's leaving behind, including me if we're still together that far down the road. He doesnt want to go to college with a girlfriend and I'm not sure how I'm supposed to take any of that.
Sure we have at least a year if not more, but what happends then? If I like him enough to start bawling when the topic even comes up, how the hell am I supposed to take it when we break up? When he totally cuts himself off from me?
He told me not to get emotionally attatched and I'm trying, I really am. I mean Thursday is our one month and we haven't even said 'I love you' to each other which either means we're waiting until we feel it's really true, or its just never going to be said.
I tried to tell him the longer we date the harder it will be to say goodbyebut he didnt quite seem to get it until he asked me if it would get harder as time went on and I said yes...I dont think it quite struck him that my feelings for him will grow and I'm not sure he even knows how much I care about him now.
He said I'm the most important thing to him right now and he doesnt see that changing...but how can he let the most important thing go with no second thought...
He thinks it's so ludicris that two people could fall in love in highschool and be together forever, even though his brother, in his sophomore year of college, is still with his junior year sweetheart...
I cant be in a relationship where the end always haunts me, but in no means do I want out...
Everything is such a blurr to me right now
Sky and I finally talked about our future and s far, it's not looking so hot. He pretty much told me once he leaves for college he's cutting himself off from everyone he's leaving behind, including me if we're still together that far down the road. He doesnt want to go to college with a girlfriend and I'm not sure how I'm supposed to take any of that.
Sure we have at least a year if not more, but what happends then? If I like him enough to start bawling when the topic even comes up, how the hell am I supposed to take it when we break up? When he totally cuts himself off from me?
He told me not to get emotionally attatched and I'm trying, I really am. I mean Thursday is our one month and we haven't even said 'I love you' to each other which either means we're waiting until we feel it's really true, or its just never going to be said.
I tried to tell him the longer we date the harder it will be to say goodbyebut he didnt quite seem to get it until he asked me if it would get harder as time went on and I said yes...I dont think it quite struck him that my feelings for him will grow and I'm not sure he even knows how much I care about him now.
He said I'm the most important thing to him right now and he doesnt see that changing...but how can he let the most important thing go with no second thought...
He thinks it's so ludicris that two people could fall in love in highschool and be together forever, even though his brother, in his sophomore year of college, is still with his junior year sweetheart...
I cant be in a relationship where the end always haunts me, but in no means do I want out...
Everything is such a blurr to me right now