Just another day
Well, its 1:45 on a tuesday and im sitting here with no makeup on updating. Pretty cool. Im bored, truth be told. Im a little aggrivated to be honest. I had some plans for today but they didnt go as planned so i guess im kinda stuck here until my doctors appt tonight.
Christmas was pretty interesting. I dont know what happened but this year i just wasnt in the christmas mood. It was cute to see my little cousins all giddy about the presents. One of my uncles dressed up like Santa, just like he did when my cousins and i were little, and it was nice to see the little ones react to that. Remember when christmas was just the greatest thing ever? What happened to that? I guess its just part of growing up. Katherine and i were still booted to the kiddy table when it came time for dinner though. Some things never change, i guess.
I feel like i hit rock bottom. Im soo blah right now and everything has been going so well. I got nice things for Christmas. Ive been busy with friends. I have a great boyfriend. So, how can i feel so shitty right now?
Maybe you arent suppose to get what you want. Or a better way to put it is- Maybe you arent suppose to feel how you thought you would. Maybe youre just suppose to ride it all out and see where it takes you. I know none of this is making any sense to you but its all the truth in my head. Im just having a mini- breakdown in my head and this is my escape to vent it all out.
I gotta go...im not in a writing moood.
Christmas was pretty interesting. I dont know what happened but this year i just wasnt in the christmas mood. It was cute to see my little cousins all giddy about the presents. One of my uncles dressed up like Santa, just like he did when my cousins and i were little, and it was nice to see the little ones react to that. Remember when christmas was just the greatest thing ever? What happened to that? I guess its just part of growing up. Katherine and i were still booted to the kiddy table when it came time for dinner though. Some things never change, i guess.
I feel like i hit rock bottom. Im soo blah right now and everything has been going so well. I got nice things for Christmas. Ive been busy with friends. I have a great boyfriend. So, how can i feel so shitty right now?
Maybe you arent suppose to get what you want. Or a better way to put it is- Maybe you arent suppose to feel how you thought you would. Maybe youre just suppose to ride it all out and see where it takes you. I know none of this is making any sense to you but its all the truth in my head. Im just having a mini- breakdown in my head and this is my escape to vent it all out.
I gotta go...im not in a writing moood.