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i don't know why that would bother me so much.
probably because it isn't right.
it's actually kind of mean.
but not directly.
i guess that's why you wouldn't understand.
i don't know why i'm trying to stall.
the more i get done tonight, the more i don't have to worry about.
this week has been intense.
too much work to do.
too many tests.
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i feel like screaming.
and i miss you.
but i'm hurting you.
and i don't know you.
and i can't see you.
and i need to talk to you.
i don't know what happened to you.
and you aren't the same you.
none of you are.
i'm not.
there are too many you's.
not enough we's.
i can't wait to go home.
probably because it isn't right.
it's actually kind of mean.
but not directly.
i guess that's why you wouldn't understand.
i don't know why i'm trying to stall.
the more i get done tonight, the more i don't have to worry about.
this week has been intense.
too much work to do.
too many tests.
finals.study.papers.5.driving.exhausting.emotions.tests.assignments.lastweek.free.nothingisfree.takeadvantage.goahead.feelingsdon'tmatter.selfish.toomuchwork.notworkingenough.canigetby.tooold.notoldenough.youaren'tthesame.butitdoesn'tbotherme.sleepdeprivation.healthy.notquite.caving.drowning.can'tfigureoutwhattodo.notright.butleft.thenwhat.hurt.lie.love.toomuch.notenough.change.noise.compliment.insult.thankyou.help.notavailable.escape.notachance.listen.newdirection.leaving.hard.cry.smile.i'mgladyoucan.talk.secrets.notfair.retainthis.losethat.can'tdoit.
i feel like screaming.
and i miss you.
but i'm hurting you.
and i don't know you.
and i can't see you.
and i need to talk to you.
i don't know what happened to you.
and you aren't the same you.
none of you are.
i'm not.
there are too many you's.
not enough we's.
i can't wait to go home.