In a thinking mood..

[lookdeep1ns1de]

"There are a few people in this world that are extraordinary and stick out like a flower in the midst of thorns. Believe it or not these select few can mean the world and more to many. I've only found a few like this, but those few in particular stick out the greatest. (and by a few i mean ...a few..) They are so much deeper then anyone could ever give then credit for. I've been searching for..well..ever since i've known them. And not yet have i discovered how big their hearts are or what occurs in their minds. The qualities that they posses are unexplainable. In my heart i know that they have let me down in certain situations, but i think that you have to struggle to get through the bad to find the good. If we are really that good of best of friends, then they will always find their way back to me. They aren't the only ones in this bond; I have to feed my part too. If i didn't accept them when they came back then we wouldn't become anything more. WE wouldn't have moved on to become and grow to be even better friends. It really takes two to get through obstacles with such issues and heartbreaks. Even if they might have broken my heart few to many times, i'm always willing to let them mend it. I truly know that they will always come back and always be with me. If not physically then mentally and emotionally. They have taught me so many wondrous and meaningful things. They give advice yet listen too. You really do need some people to listen to you. That changes what i have thought of people. Before i talked to then i had the impression that no one would ever understand. I was blocking out everyone and everything, and then all of a sudden i opened up to them. I actually let them in. Actually having someone to listen to you makes you feel so much better, it relives the pressure. And i think they actually do understand half of what i go through, even if they haven't expierenced it themselves. They know me and they can feel what i'm going through. Its amazing; it takes a strong person to keep on breaking down my walls, and to be patient with me while i go through my stages. If they hold on to me long enough they will be able to break the unbreakable walls that i create. Also it takes a unique person to shatter my walls that fast. The people that can make me just spill what i compile in myself... I want you all to know that you are so...unexplainable..all the things that you all posses have made you tower so tall among the rest of us. Some of you all keep things to yourselves and act like nothing is wrong. I see thought your act, i really do. Its just i know that when you have your mind set on something, its not going to budge. How can you act that great..i'll never know..the things that you have accomplished and gotten through..makes me speechless. Now i'm going to quit writing about you and think. In my mind i can reach beyond words and beyond feelings, and i can't describe it in real life or in words. Becuase i'll never be able to describe how you make me feel or how wonderful you are. And i'll never be able to unlock you completely but that doesn't matter..but it doesn't mean i can't try. Just know i think more or you than you know..

lol this might apply to a few of you guys out there^ that is what i do when i need to think i write...well today was a good day..this weeks been great..but how couldnt my life be great?..:)
<3 McKenna