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so last night i went into the garage for an hour and went on a mission to find all my old photo albums. and if you know me, you know i have photo albums up the butt.
it was kind of amazing. i saved EVERYTHING. i found my eighth grade graduation cap, things from practically every retreat ive been on, notes from people in high school that i saved....all my old journals, it was really crazy. my mom told me to never throw anything away when at the time i wanted to rip pages and pages of journal entries out when i reread them. but im so glad i didnt.
i also reread one of the letters i wrote to myself in high school. i didnt really mean TOO much to me when i had read it before in my senior year but this time it did. i have changed so much but all of the changes have been for the better. they actually havent really been changes. everything i decided about myself in my senior year is still there. it has only been strenghtened. i am really happy about that. all i wanted during most of high school and all before that was to really feel like i could be my own person, be fully myself, and have people like and accept that. i am now. i know a lot of people should be able to say that at 20 but really some people can't. but i can and honestly im really proud of myself for that. i decided things and i really did them. today im gonna go through a lot of albums and stuff before i go to my meeting. should be good.
i also found pictures of you abby. i love you and i know youre smiling down on your family and your friends. please be with us, we miss you so much.
2 hours or so until the board meeting! i cant believe that im really saying im going to a board meeting. how old does that sound haha. well im definitely the odd one out, everyone else is like 40. alright. off to go shower and look at pictures and stufff.
if you read all that you're a pretty sweet human being.
ohh!! last night i was in effing BED HEAVEN. my sister has the greatest bed ever!!! let me tell you the comforter i have always wanted. it was g-l-o-r-i-o-u-s. and also....pictures today....hahah