Now what?
So I'm back at school and everything, feeling totally overwhelmed and isolated. I don't quite know where to go from here; I know what I need to do, but I'm reluctant. I need to get caught up, I need to call and ask for money, I need to clean my room, I need to get some sort of written documentation for why I was gone... I need to do a whole lot of things.
It's hard, though. I don't know if I can do all of those things. I just want to rewind to when I was, like, 5 and start over. Then I could at least not feel like such an awful person. And I could say goodbye. I don't know.
I keep thinking of this really cheesy country song by Kathy Mattea that we used to listen to, and how she used to say it made her think about me when I would get older.
It's hard, though. I don't know if I can do all of those things. I just want to rewind to when I was, like, 5 and start over. Then I could at least not feel like such an awful person. And I could say goodbye. I don't know.
I keep thinking of this really cheesy country song by Kathy Mattea that we used to listen to, and how she used to say it made her think about me when I would get older.