May 01, 2004 13:15
Ever since I turned about 14 and my friends started to get into "serious" (or what they thought were serious, anyway) relationships, I started to hear all this talk about "forever together" and (eek) marriage. And I thought, I'm 14, I have no idea how old you think you are, but we are way to young to be talking like this. Call me unromantic, but I just think it's ridiculous for people that young to be saying things like that to each other. And I think a lot of people who say it now, at 20, are still too emotionally young to be saying it. Maybe I'm the abnormal one, but I don't really want to be committed to someone for life at this age. I'm still young, and my life is going to change so much in the next seven or so years, what with grad school and *hopefully* Europe. It honestly freaks me out to hear people talking about searching for marriage at this age. If they happen to find that special someone, that's great, but it shouldn't be a desperate hunt. At least not until you reach about 35.
Now I know I'm not exactly your normal relationship type. I actually avoid serious relationships, because I know I can't handle them at this point. And that probably makes a difference in the way I feel about people making half-empty promises to spend their lives together, but I just don't understand this need people have for finding that person right now. Honestly, I think that need makes people settle for someone who isn't the right person, convincing themselves that this person is perfect when, in reality, that's not the case.
I'm cynical, I know, but this is how I feel. Then again, that's probably why nobody will ever marry me. But you know what, I don't mind that too much. I'd like to fall in love and get married, but I believe in true love, and if I don't find that, I'd rather stay single than marry someone I only feel a feigned passion for. That's just me.
P.S. Something smells funny in my room, and I have a feeling I'm going to find out what it is once I move all my stuff out.