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I decided I am going to work on being a better me! I'm going to have to try really hard because I don't know if that is possible in the first place. I mean, c'mon look at me, I'm awesome. But what I mean is trying to be nicer to the people that matter to me. And I say that because I can't just give up being an asshole to random people that i meet at a party or soemthing becasue it's to goddamn funny. I mean it depends, sometimes I'll be nice but if i feel liek being an asshole I will be because it makes me laugh. maybe that is immature and some people are probably like what the fuck?! but I don't give a shit anyways so it doesn't really matter. DOES IT? The answer is no. SO now I will proceed to give you examples.
First and Foremost: My amazingly awesome Boyfriend of 65 years, Chad Albert Stewart.
that's just me and Chad being in love.( And that is Toni and aaron next to us, they are in love too!) Well, you see, sometime's I am a crazy girlfriend which is most unatractive and probably would drive most other guys away. but for some reason Chad sticks around and is very good company for my heart he definitly has alot of patience let me tell you that much. But i'm not all bad except for when I am a huge jerk to him for no apperent reason and then 5 minutes later i feel like a huge ass hole and i'm like " why the fuck did i do that/ say that?" it is retarded. and very uncalled for. SO, considering he went to Georgia and is far away from me again after we spent alot of nice time in Florida together being in love and eating cereal together, it is going to be very tough for me, for us. Chad though is wicked good at being optimisic about everything ever and being happy every day of his life and smiling that big cute smile that makes my face melt off my head, in the best way possible. And then im jsut liek what the fuck this sucks wah wah allt he time and then i get all pisssed and angry and mean only because I miss him and for no other reason. But then I'm like why do I have to be like SO MEAN AND MISS HIM why can't i be nice and miss him at the same time. SO I have to work on not being a complete jerk for no reason because as mst of us may know, that helps absolutly nothing if anything it makes things worse. SO that's about it on his part i hope he know's im gonig to seriuosly try my hardest. oh also it was his birthday and he turned 21 so now he can buy alcohol. once again to bad he is in georiga. this is a birthday picture for everyone to see.
HORRAY FOR CHAD BEING 21!!!!
NEXT.
I have to be nicer to my friends because sometimes I am a jerk because if they do something wicked stupid then I am not going to hold back in telling them so. I'm a sensitive person in an odd way and if my friend's do shit that is totally uncool it makes me mad because they are not good things to be done. yes i realize i have to back off and let them live their life and forgive but I cannot do that all the time so maybe I have to try to ease off. I'm not making any promsies thoguh because people will really surprise you in their actions sometimes that it maeks oyur jaw drop to the floor. so yeah friends of mine, im trying to shut up.
lastly. I pretty much think I have to be nicer to my family. It's not even that I am not nice i jsut try to avoid most of them at all costs because i jsut don't ike being around them. I mean i came home and my mom and dad always just firght about the stupidest stuff all the time and im 99 percent sure my dad is cheating on my mom and have plenty of evidence to prove it. but you know what, at least i can try and be around more often espeically because I know i wil lnot be living here very long because i really do not want to i want to move out and start my own life all with me. I mean when i moved to florida it was awesome but i msised home so i want to live closer to home so I don't be homesick. plus I don't thnk i fit in very well in Florida I missed boston to much. Jade though is my favorite four year old ever and I felt bad leaving her the most, and since I have been back she has been attached to my hip at all times and won't do anything with out me. its so cute though.
now
LET ME JSUT TELL YOU SOMETHING. some one was serioulsy on my log in on this computer and downlaoded mad porn videos. and Iwas liek shit, was that me? and I kinda got a little embrassed. I mean not that iwatch that stuff or anything... but the dates say june 24th and july 11th 2007 and I know for a fat it was not me because I was not in this sate on those dates so I want to know what person in ths family is trying to frame me for their dirty habits! then I think, who knows my password? And the only person that comes to my mind IS MY DAD. THATS GROSS. but seriously My head is killing me nd I need to go eat chips and salsa. and watch tv on my wicked sweet liek 50 inch 1080i hd sick tv that my dad bought.
BYE
First and Foremost: My amazingly awesome Boyfriend of 65 years, Chad Albert Stewart.
that's just me and Chad being in love.( And that is Toni and aaron next to us, they are in love too!) Well, you see, sometime's I am a crazy girlfriend which is most unatractive and probably would drive most other guys away. but for some reason Chad sticks around and is very good company for my heart he definitly has alot of patience let me tell you that much. But i'm not all bad except for when I am a huge jerk to him for no apperent reason and then 5 minutes later i feel like a huge ass hole and i'm like " why the fuck did i do that/ say that?" it is retarded. and very uncalled for. SO, considering he went to Georgia and is far away from me again after we spent alot of nice time in Florida together being in love and eating cereal together, it is going to be very tough for me, for us. Chad though is wicked good at being optimisic about everything ever and being happy every day of his life and smiling that big cute smile that makes my face melt off my head, in the best way possible. And then im jsut liek what the fuck this sucks wah wah allt he time and then i get all pisssed and angry and mean only because I miss him and for no other reason. But then I'm like why do I have to be like SO MEAN AND MISS HIM why can't i be nice and miss him at the same time. SO I have to work on not being a complete jerk for no reason because as mst of us may know, that helps absolutly nothing if anything it makes things worse. SO that's about it on his part i hope he know's im gonig to seriuosly try my hardest. oh also it was his birthday and he turned 21 so now he can buy alcohol. once again to bad he is in georiga. this is a birthday picture for everyone to see.
HORRAY FOR CHAD BEING 21!!!!
NEXT.
I have to be nicer to my friends because sometimes I am a jerk because if they do something wicked stupid then I am not going to hold back in telling them so. I'm a sensitive person in an odd way and if my friend's do shit that is totally uncool it makes me mad because they are not good things to be done. yes i realize i have to back off and let them live their life and forgive but I cannot do that all the time so maybe I have to try to ease off. I'm not making any promsies thoguh because people will really surprise you in their actions sometimes that it maeks oyur jaw drop to the floor. so yeah friends of mine, im trying to shut up.
lastly. I pretty much think I have to be nicer to my family. It's not even that I am not nice i jsut try to avoid most of them at all costs because i jsut don't ike being around them. I mean i came home and my mom and dad always just firght about the stupidest stuff all the time and im 99 percent sure my dad is cheating on my mom and have plenty of evidence to prove it. but you know what, at least i can try and be around more often espeically because I know i wil lnot be living here very long because i really do not want to i want to move out and start my own life all with me. I mean when i moved to florida it was awesome but i msised home so i want to live closer to home so I don't be homesick. plus I don't thnk i fit in very well in Florida I missed boston to much. Jade though is my favorite four year old ever and I felt bad leaving her the most, and since I have been back she has been attached to my hip at all times and won't do anything with out me. its so cute though.
now
LET ME JSUT TELL YOU SOMETHING. some one was serioulsy on my log in on this computer and downlaoded mad porn videos. and Iwas liek shit, was that me? and I kinda got a little embrassed. I mean not that iwatch that stuff or anything... but the dates say june 24th and july 11th 2007 and I know for a fat it was not me because I was not in this sate on those dates so I want to know what person in ths family is trying to frame me for their dirty habits! then I think, who knows my password? And the only person that comes to my mind IS MY DAD. THATS GROSS. but seriously My head is killing me nd I need to go eat chips and salsa. and watch tv on my wicked sweet liek 50 inch 1080i hd sick tv that my dad bought.
BYE