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So I know in the past couple of days I had a thought that I wanted to share with you readers but it has completely slipped my mind...so i figure if i just write for a little while maybe it will come to me...
First off - a major congrats to the cast of Les Mis the show was absolutely beautiful!!! I don't say this to be rude but it was really alot better than i thought it was going to be (i hope that doesn't offend anyone!)
I've noticed in me a lot of changes lately. I've calmed out alot and don't get stressed out over pretty much anything anymore. I was telling Steven Lewis that earlier and he had the same reaction as everyone else i've told...they all say "i donno if thats a good thing or bad thing". I donno maybe its the senioritis but i'd rather be a little behind and calm about it then a little behind and freaking out to tears. I'm kinda just sick of my random mental breakdowns...i don't think its good for my health lol.
I think i've become a mean person. I really do. i've noticed that i literally have no patience towards one of the girls at dance that is supposed to be my best friends and i've lost alot of patience in general. i kind of snap at little things....like my friend asks the same questions like three times and it really irritates me. i donno...
and I've noticed myself having little moments where i realize that i'm becoming an adult. and then i deny it....i guess i'm just going in and out of finding who i am and finally accepting it.
This is such a weird stage to be in cuz i go from wanting to do my AP us gov. essay to wanting to color in a coloring book
and i can never exactly tell you what my mood is.
i haven't cried in quite a while but i feel like i could use it...yes....i think i could use a good cry
and i keep going from loving this stage of finding myself and blossoming into a woman and really really hating having to grow up.
I read my lj from christmas time last year...i feel like i was a nicer, more loving person. maybe i was just more outspoken. I donno...
i've gone kinda psycho and started writing on my walls...i took the quote that Emily gave me (thanks for that btw) and wrote on the wall next to my comp and i took a quote my awesome favorite dance teacher gave me and wrote it next to it...here they are respectively:
"I hope you fine yourself alright alone, Find yourself with open arms, Find yourself in time"
"Often the hardest things in life are the most rewarding - you cannot gain if you are not willing to risk - the choice is life or death - you can be living dead - remember that - choose life, what do you have to lose?"
Then in between them i have a paper that i covered in drawings and quotes:
"Life is not about becoming who you want to be...it's about wanting to be the person you've become."
"Life is a dance...dance beautifully"
"Never give up hope....someday that may be what gets you by when you have nothing left."
"Your life is yours and no one else's - live it that way"
"Only in truth will you find perfection"
i hope you enjoyed all of that....i'll see you all at school...i love you!!!
Lucy
First off - a major congrats to the cast of Les Mis the show was absolutely beautiful!!! I don't say this to be rude but it was really alot better than i thought it was going to be (i hope that doesn't offend anyone!)
I've noticed in me a lot of changes lately. I've calmed out alot and don't get stressed out over pretty much anything anymore. I was telling Steven Lewis that earlier and he had the same reaction as everyone else i've told...they all say "i donno if thats a good thing or bad thing". I donno maybe its the senioritis but i'd rather be a little behind and calm about it then a little behind and freaking out to tears. I'm kinda just sick of my random mental breakdowns...i don't think its good for my health lol.
I think i've become a mean person. I really do. i've noticed that i literally have no patience towards one of the girls at dance that is supposed to be my best friends and i've lost alot of patience in general. i kind of snap at little things....like my friend asks the same questions like three times and it really irritates me. i donno...
and I've noticed myself having little moments where i realize that i'm becoming an adult. and then i deny it....i guess i'm just going in and out of finding who i am and finally accepting it.
This is such a weird stage to be in cuz i go from wanting to do my AP us gov. essay to wanting to color in a coloring book
and i can never exactly tell you what my mood is.
i haven't cried in quite a while but i feel like i could use it...yes....i think i could use a good cry
and i keep going from loving this stage of finding myself and blossoming into a woman and really really hating having to grow up.
I read my lj from christmas time last year...i feel like i was a nicer, more loving person. maybe i was just more outspoken. I donno...
i've gone kinda psycho and started writing on my walls...i took the quote that Emily gave me (thanks for that btw) and wrote on the wall next to my comp and i took a quote my awesome favorite dance teacher gave me and wrote it next to it...here they are respectively:
"I hope you fine yourself alright alone, Find yourself with open arms, Find yourself in time"
"Often the hardest things in life are the most rewarding - you cannot gain if you are not willing to risk - the choice is life or death - you can be living dead - remember that - choose life, what do you have to lose?"
Then in between them i have a paper that i covered in drawings and quotes:
"Life is not about becoming who you want to be...it's about wanting to be the person you've become."
"Life is a dance...dance beautifully"
"Never give up hope....someday that may be what gets you by when you have nothing left."
"Your life is yours and no one else's - live it that way"
"Only in truth will you find perfection"
i hope you enjoyed all of that....i'll see you all at school...i love you!!!
Lucy