i apologize for the length...
So break is almost over and I keep going back and forth between not caring and thinking "ya i knew it was coming" to going "shit i feel like i'm going to throw up" i'm on page 25 of my 395 page book and I've memorized half of my lines. I'm totally over it, though, which is kinda bad...i think i'm going to have the worst senioritis ever....considering i've had some form of it since sophomore year...
It was good to be back in dance this week...it's amazing how much one week off can affect a dancer's body...anyway i took some cool pictures (on my new digital camera :o) with some of my friends in dance and we are all doing cool extensions....so as soon as i load them into my comp i'll post them....
i think I just need to start a diet....not to lose weight or anything (duh) but my body just isn't right....i get stomach aches all the time now and i've been getting cold spells (all of a sudden i get FREEZING cold) and i get really shaky every now and then....i think i need more fruits and veggies...and more water...lots of water...(i act like water can solve everything....water, vitamin c and echinacea right sean?)
i'm really bummed i didn't get to see any theatre peeps over break...i know it's totally my own fault for being so busy that i get kind of exluded from group outings...i'm just bummed i don't get to see you guys as much anymore....i miss the days when everyone lived in my car :o)...
i hope everyone's christmas was wonderful and everyone's new year's eve rocked....i got sick (of course) but i had a wonderful evening...it was Sean and my one year anniversary and that's pretty amazing...i decided that in some ways I feel like the year went by so fast and in other ways i feel like i've known him my whole life....it's pretty much the best feeling ever....
so my friend gave me their old nsync and backstreet boys cds and they make me so happy....nothing beats sappy boy band love songs...
This I Promise You - "and i will take you in my arms and hold you right where you belong..."
Selfish - "you can call me selfish, but all i want is your love..."
Something Like You - "Something happens when you kiss my mouth my knees get so weak"
Two of Us - "Cuz in a room full of people you're the only one around..."
I thought she knew - "she was my once in a lifetime, happy ending come true..."
awwwwwwww so precious....i KNOW I KNOW i'm a teeny bopper leave me alone....
anyways I've decided i'm scared shitless of the future....i have no idea what lies ahead of me. NO IDEA. none. i want to dance. i'm scared to graduate and i'm scared of turning 18 (which is in 2 1/2 months btw) i'm scared of change. I'm scared of leaving and going away. I seriously just don't know if i'm cut out to live in this world. I think i was made to live in a world that doesn't exist anymore and I have no idea what i'm going to do with myself when i have to support myself. luckily i've been making some money teaching right now but i can only get so many hours.
whatever...i'm going to just try and live each day at a time....screw planning ahead...rationality is overrated...
i want to take a bunch of inspirational quotes and start putting them around my room...so if you guys have any good uplifting, inspiring, feel good quotes i'd love to hear them...anyway i'm off to read....i love you all very much and i'll see (most of) you on monday....*muah*
Lucy
It was good to be back in dance this week...it's amazing how much one week off can affect a dancer's body...anyway i took some cool pictures (on my new digital camera :o) with some of my friends in dance and we are all doing cool extensions....so as soon as i load them into my comp i'll post them....
i think I just need to start a diet....not to lose weight or anything (duh) but my body just isn't right....i get stomach aches all the time now and i've been getting cold spells (all of a sudden i get FREEZING cold) and i get really shaky every now and then....i think i need more fruits and veggies...and more water...lots of water...(i act like water can solve everything....water, vitamin c and echinacea right sean?)
i'm really bummed i didn't get to see any theatre peeps over break...i know it's totally my own fault for being so busy that i get kind of exluded from group outings...i'm just bummed i don't get to see you guys as much anymore....i miss the days when everyone lived in my car :o)...
i hope everyone's christmas was wonderful and everyone's new year's eve rocked....i got sick (of course) but i had a wonderful evening...it was Sean and my one year anniversary and that's pretty amazing...i decided that in some ways I feel like the year went by so fast and in other ways i feel like i've known him my whole life....it's pretty much the best feeling ever....
so my friend gave me their old nsync and backstreet boys cds and they make me so happy....nothing beats sappy boy band love songs...
This I Promise You - "and i will take you in my arms and hold you right where you belong..."
Selfish - "you can call me selfish, but all i want is your love..."
Something Like You - "Something happens when you kiss my mouth my knees get so weak"
Two of Us - "Cuz in a room full of people you're the only one around..."
I thought she knew - "she was my once in a lifetime, happy ending come true..."
awwwwwwww so precious....i KNOW I KNOW i'm a teeny bopper leave me alone....
anyways I've decided i'm scared shitless of the future....i have no idea what lies ahead of me. NO IDEA. none. i want to dance. i'm scared to graduate and i'm scared of turning 18 (which is in 2 1/2 months btw) i'm scared of change. I'm scared of leaving and going away. I seriously just don't know if i'm cut out to live in this world. I think i was made to live in a world that doesn't exist anymore and I have no idea what i'm going to do with myself when i have to support myself. luckily i've been making some money teaching right now but i can only get so many hours.
whatever...i'm going to just try and live each day at a time....screw planning ahead...rationality is overrated...
i want to take a bunch of inspirational quotes and start putting them around my room...so if you guys have any good uplifting, inspiring, feel good quotes i'd love to hear them...anyway i'm off to read....i love you all very much and i'll see (most of) you on monday....*muah*
Lucy