first entry
Well, this is the first time I have written in this thing. I think it's a cool thing, but sometimes I wonder why? I doubt anyone cares about the meaningless trivia of my life, so why am I putting it on the internet like every other schmuck on the face of the earth? I know not. But I'm still doing it. Here's what I'm thinking about today. Have you ever had a friend that you thought was....down on you? You see, I have this friend, and I would consider her to be a very close friend, but we have had so many problems, and I feel like sometimes I can't talk to her. She's very hard on me. Maybe I'm just sensitive or something but I don't really think so. It's like, you're my friend, you are not supposed to think I suck. I always get this vibe from her that she thinks I'm naive and selfish and just a down and out terrible person, but then she'll call me and be like oh you are my best friend. And it's hard because I'm young--I'm still trying to find out who I am and who I want to be, and here you're telling me I'm this horrible person. Yecccch. But I continue to hang out with her because she's my friend. It's like, is it me? or is it her? She just makes me feel like a terrible person, and your friends aren't supposed to do that, right? Ugh. This is the drama that is my life. I seem to only attract people with mental problems for my friends. I have this terrible history of getting burned by my best friends. And why is it that everyone nowadays seems to have mental problems? That to me is a little scary. Our world is scary.