Everything is senseless
Sometimes I really ask myself why I do the things that I'm doing. And why am I so damn f***ing nice to the people and never think about myself?
Last night (I couldn't sleep - my parents were on their way to Croatia by bus) I thought about taking my Jack Davenport Page out of the internet. And I wondered if I did would anyone miss it? I don't think actually. Luckily I want to improve my skills in programming websites and need a site I can try it with. At the moment it's the Jack Page so in a way I need it. On the other hand I could leave it on my computer.
I wish a bit more appreciation for what I do that's actually all I wanted to say. and I don't reduce it to my work on the internet. It's always like that. As I said I'm too nice to the people and for the world.
Sometimes I think people don't know what work it is to things that maybe look simple - but only looking simply doesn't mean they are always easy to do.
I also recognised that I forgot to take those pills for my depression the last days. I'm so stupid I even forget to take one simple pill a day (well with the other one it works out quite fine actually *lol*) This is stupid... The problem is: I should take them in the morning. I always forget doing things in the morning. I will switch - taking them in the evening as the other. Can't imagine that it will make it worse.
Sorry for bothering you with my sick thoughts.
P.S.: to slave_monkey you asked for the code of the page. you can have it. just tell me what you want...
Last night (I couldn't sleep - my parents were on their way to Croatia by bus) I thought about taking my Jack Davenport Page out of the internet. And I wondered if I did would anyone miss it? I don't think actually. Luckily I want to improve my skills in programming websites and need a site I can try it with. At the moment it's the Jack Page so in a way I need it. On the other hand I could leave it on my computer.
I wish a bit more appreciation for what I do that's actually all I wanted to say. and I don't reduce it to my work on the internet. It's always like that. As I said I'm too nice to the people and for the world.
Sometimes I think people don't know what work it is to things that maybe look simple - but only looking simply doesn't mean they are always easy to do.
I also recognised that I forgot to take those pills for my depression the last days. I'm so stupid I even forget to take one simple pill a day (well with the other one it works out quite fine actually *lol*) This is stupid... The problem is: I should take them in the morning. I always forget doing things in the morning. I will switch - taking them in the evening as the other. Can't imagine that it will make it worse.
Sorry for bothering you with my sick thoughts.
P.S.: to slave_monkey you asked for the code of the page. you can have it. just tell me what you want...