Marriage
I don't know what it is about marriage. I do want to get married but why? Jeff says it is just a piece of paper, but it is more than that. If you sign a piece of paper, that means you are so committed to each other and are so sure that you will never be apart that you will risk having to file papers, pay lots of money and losing assets if you get divorced. It is like being willingly shackled together which doesn't sound that great after all. But back when I was little, I had no idea about papers, all it was to me was a vow, a dress, a party, walking down the aisle, and of course living happily ever after riding off into the sunset on my new knight in shining armor's noble steed. But it is never "happily ever after" and vows are a joke nowadays. Nothing is sacred anymore. People break their vows every day, I did! I don't know why I want it. It's just the ring and the proposing and the clothes and the hair and the planning and the decorations and the people and the pictures. It's a lot like Christmas. Many people, (including Jeff) see it as a trivial corporate holiday where all you do is spend money you don't have and get into arguments with family but it is more than that. It is the presents and the paper and the lights and the songs and the tree and family and friends getting together and the dinner. I may not be able to fully psychologically explain why I want to be married but it is something that is a requirement of my life and relationship.