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so im really pissed. I have realised that I am being used...
and it no ones fault but my own.
by July, Allain will owe me almost $1000.
I highly doubt I will get it all.
our relationship is going down the tubes and will be even worse when he starts working for his brother for free.
every time I bring these subjects up, he makes me feel like Im some nagging bitch.
and I slowly feel like a worthless nagging angry bitch.
I was looking at mydeathspace.com the other day and thought about what people would say about me when I die.
I think Allain would say that I was great when I was happy, but terrible when I was mad.
I seriously think about what people say about other people and think "will people say that about me?" or will I just be
known as a nagging bitch.
there is a peice of paper on the wall with a pretty looking dog and a punk looking dog, the punk dog is a male and the pretty one is a female and she looks like she is yelling at him and he has his eyes closed, The writing underneath reads "sometimes we all just think "if I just close my eyes, the bitch will go away" I feel like that is Allain and I.
I feel like I am a bitch that nags, and He just wishes I will go away.
He said he wanted to come home the other night instead of staying the night at his brothers, and I thought "oh thats nice, he wants to spend time with me" and then later on he tried to have sex with me and then I realised that that was the only reason he wanted to come home. I didnt have sex with him because 1. I had a spltting headache/migraine, 2. I had to be up early, and 3. I really dont think he deserves it!
so he stayed up and wouldnt go to sleep, then he eventually got on the computer and probably was sitting looking at porn.
which I also discovered on the computer's memory .
hundreds of porn sites...
When I confronted him with it he said he was lonely...
He can spend the entire day with me and not get sex and call that lonely...
I need to separate from him, I just really want to get away. Im sick of picking up his shit off the floor, having to put the toilet seat down, and having to beg him for my share of the money to pay the bills.
I feel really lonely myself... even in a crowded room. people at work make me feel like Im fucking stupid, I dont have anyone to talk to and I just feel so lonely inside.
I hate this shit...
If anyone was to ask me what the biggest mistake I have ever made is, it would be getting married.
fo sho.
and it no ones fault but my own.
by July, Allain will owe me almost $1000.
I highly doubt I will get it all.
our relationship is going down the tubes and will be even worse when he starts working for his brother for free.
every time I bring these subjects up, he makes me feel like Im some nagging bitch.
and I slowly feel like a worthless nagging angry bitch.
I was looking at mydeathspace.com the other day and thought about what people would say about me when I die.
I think Allain would say that I was great when I was happy, but terrible when I was mad.
I seriously think about what people say about other people and think "will people say that about me?" or will I just be
known as a nagging bitch.
there is a peice of paper on the wall with a pretty looking dog and a punk looking dog, the punk dog is a male and the pretty one is a female and she looks like she is yelling at him and he has his eyes closed, The writing underneath reads "sometimes we all just think "if I just close my eyes, the bitch will go away" I feel like that is Allain and I.
I feel like I am a bitch that nags, and He just wishes I will go away.
He said he wanted to come home the other night instead of staying the night at his brothers, and I thought "oh thats nice, he wants to spend time with me" and then later on he tried to have sex with me and then I realised that that was the only reason he wanted to come home. I didnt have sex with him because 1. I had a spltting headache/migraine, 2. I had to be up early, and 3. I really dont think he deserves it!
so he stayed up and wouldnt go to sleep, then he eventually got on the computer and probably was sitting looking at porn.
which I also discovered on the computer's memory .
hundreds of porn sites...
When I confronted him with it he said he was lonely...
He can spend the entire day with me and not get sex and call that lonely...
I need to separate from him, I just really want to get away. Im sick of picking up his shit off the floor, having to put the toilet seat down, and having to beg him for my share of the money to pay the bills.
I feel really lonely myself... even in a crowded room. people at work make me feel like Im fucking stupid, I dont have anyone to talk to and I just feel so lonely inside.
I hate this shit...
If anyone was to ask me what the biggest mistake I have ever made is, it would be getting married.
fo sho.