I feel alone, and empty .. HELP ME
I can't stop thinking about when i am gonna leave . . .
It might be in 7 months or maybe 12 months .. honestly i don't know .. but i can't stop thinking about it..
*** GRRRRR ***
i want to be with Brandon more then anything, and when that day comes i am going to walk out that door tears falling down my face with what my parents are making it sound like " leaving a broken family "
i can't help but cry when my mother tells me that she doesnt know what shes gonna do when im gone, and hearing my father tell me that no-matter if i am 80yrs old i will always be his little girl...
* Wipes away tears *
i hate it here... but i love them so much .. how can they upset me and drive me to wanting to leave and now that i am so close .. i fear that without Brandon encouraging me and supporting me i wont be able to..
my daddy used to tell me that when my senior yr came around that if i wanted he would fix the shed out back so i could stay there while i went to college, and my mother keeps reminding me that i can stay with her FOREVER .. and if things EVER get bad i can always come home to her .. .
Mom keeps telling me that its gonna be so hard for me .. and i can't help but worrie about it .. can me and Brandon really pull this off? The relationship part will be EASY it's everything els thats haunting my dreams.. its gonna be hard because i am gonna go to school also ... but i have to go to school .. i see my mother, and my aunt and how missrable they are and it's like there depending on me to fix there "LIFE" ... and my daddy .. he wants me to do something with my life..
So yea i understand my life is going to be hard at first .. and i will worrie if we will be able to do it .. but ..
**grrrr**
i feel so alone right now ..
* wipes away tears .. *
Baby are we ready for this ? ? ?
** Brandon I love you .. don't take this as i don't want to live with you because you know i want to and when the time comes i will .. im just feeling bad and i miss you .. **
It might be in 7 months or maybe 12 months .. honestly i don't know .. but i can't stop thinking about it..
*** GRRRRR ***
i want to be with Brandon more then anything, and when that day comes i am going to walk out that door tears falling down my face with what my parents are making it sound like " leaving a broken family "
i can't help but cry when my mother tells me that she doesnt know what shes gonna do when im gone, and hearing my father tell me that no-matter if i am 80yrs old i will always be his little girl...
* Wipes away tears *
i hate it here... but i love them so much .. how can they upset me and drive me to wanting to leave and now that i am so close .. i fear that without Brandon encouraging me and supporting me i wont be able to..
my daddy used to tell me that when my senior yr came around that if i wanted he would fix the shed out back so i could stay there while i went to college, and my mother keeps reminding me that i can stay with her FOREVER .. and if things EVER get bad i can always come home to her .. .
Mom keeps telling me that its gonna be so hard for me .. and i can't help but worrie about it .. can me and Brandon really pull this off? The relationship part will be EASY it's everything els thats haunting my dreams.. its gonna be hard because i am gonna go to school also ... but i have to go to school .. i see my mother, and my aunt and how missrable they are and it's like there depending on me to fix there "LIFE" ... and my daddy .. he wants me to do something with my life..
So yea i understand my life is going to be hard at first .. and i will worrie if we will be able to do it .. but ..
**grrrr**
i feel so alone right now ..
* wipes away tears .. *
Baby are we ready for this ? ? ?
** Brandon I love you .. don't take this as i don't want to live with you because you know i want to and when the time comes i will .. im just feeling bad and i miss you .. **