you're never ever ever there
so.......the reason i moved to utah is that my mom was offered a job at IHC for more pay, and everything is like 1/4 cheaper here, so it's like they were doubling her salary, so she thought it was "good for us". there have been many pros, like meg and all of my new friends that care about me, but there's only one thing that i miss........and it's really hard for me. being away from my best friend scott........and my band is the hardest part about living here in utah. it's just that i enjoy being around him more than anyone else, and we hung out almost everyday literally, for 3 years. i spent more time at his house than i did at my dad's. it was my sanctuary when people annoyed me or when something happened. but now i have no where to go, and i upsets me a lot, and quite often
and i'm unhappy that the band that scott and i started 3 years ago is getting popular and progressing and writing better music, and i'll never be a part of that again. and it was a once in a lifetime thing cause there will never be a group of guys like that again, and they're my best friends. it's not like i only hung out with them at band practices, i slept there on school nights sometimes, and went on vacations with them........almost every single one. his dad would invite me on jet-ski trips, taught me how to ride, and all that good stuff. he also taught me more than my own dad has, like how to build things, organization the most, and the quality of treatin people nicely, and they'll do the same to you. and i felt very honored when i went to his grandpa's funeral. and to his grandma's house in seattle, and she treated me like her grandson, and i just feel like packing up and moving back when i realize that i can never do that again. i know that after 3 years i can move back, but still....people will change, i might want to stay here, and it was just a very bad time to move. i was already in high school, then had to be demoted back to junior high once i got here since its only a 3-year high school. i am being absolutely honest when i say that if i had the chance to stay there i would in an instant....meg, don't worry, i won't have the chance. you're the only thing keeping me here, and i love you for that. for making this whole experience a positive thing. you are my first girlfriend and i want to hold on to you for as long as i can. i will love you forever, like you for always.....here in my arms, my baby you'll be.
and i'm unhappy that the band that scott and i started 3 years ago is getting popular and progressing and writing better music, and i'll never be a part of that again. and it was a once in a lifetime thing cause there will never be a group of guys like that again, and they're my best friends. it's not like i only hung out with them at band practices, i slept there on school nights sometimes, and went on vacations with them........almost every single one. his dad would invite me on jet-ski trips, taught me how to ride, and all that good stuff. he also taught me more than my own dad has, like how to build things, organization the most, and the quality of treatin people nicely, and they'll do the same to you. and i felt very honored when i went to his grandpa's funeral. and to his grandma's house in seattle, and she treated me like her grandson, and i just feel like packing up and moving back when i realize that i can never do that again. i know that after 3 years i can move back, but still....people will change, i might want to stay here, and it was just a very bad time to move. i was already in high school, then had to be demoted back to junior high once i got here since its only a 3-year high school. i am being absolutely honest when i say that if i had the chance to stay there i would in an instant....meg, don't worry, i won't have the chance. you're the only thing keeping me here, and i love you for that. for making this whole experience a positive thing. you are my first girlfriend and i want to hold on to you for as long as i can. i will love you forever, like you for always.....here in my arms, my baby you'll be.