Perfection Embodied

[longsii]

Okay I am posting this on a anybody veiw because I don't care who knows how I feel. However, I will caution everyone that this post will be completely unhindered by anything at all. I will be posting my unedited uncut feelings about her. That angel that has affected me so. The perfect Sarah-Lily Russ. So I will caution you now. If you feel

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[sugarcane_moon]

Oh by the way. I have a bone to pick with you. But you never talk to me anymore so I'll just post it here. Yeah that's right, for the whole damn world to read.

You never loved me, did you? It took me so long to figure it out, but figure it out I did. You were just waiting for Sarah. I was there to tide you over. Well you know what? I'm sick and tired of being a cheap substitute for something somebody can't have. That's all I was to you, to Steve, maybe even to Chris.

Yeah, you can respond to this if you want, but I know what you'll say and it'll all be critical. Or maybe you'll delete this entry and pretend that the woman you once claimed to love so much doesn't even exist anymore.

Thanks a whole fucking lot.

This is Sarah

[lilflower]

First of all, Matt has the right to write whatever he wants in -his- live journal. it's a free world and last time i looked, free speech is a right of a free person.

Now then. Correct me if i'm wrong... but didn't -you- break up with -him- to date someone else? if that's so, isn't it your love for him that should be questioned not his? Amazingly as it seems, Matt did love you, i know because i was his friend while you two were still going out and i helped him after you broke up. Matt didn't even know me till close to the end of your relationship and when we first got to know each other, he was horrible and mean to me. what happened between us was a freak accident.

Also, stop blaming him for your failed relationships with other men. How does Matt, a man you kicked to the curb have anything to do with your failing with other men? I mean, i'm just trying to understand your point of view. But really, stop being so bitter. He's no longer yours so just get over it and stop whining about how he "did you wrong".

Re: This is Sarah

[sugarcane_moon]

He spoke about you all the time when we were together. Constantly. Never stopped. Sarah this, Sarah that, Sarah Sarah Sarah. Things that I had said and that he had yelled at me for saying, you could say with impunity. Things that he yelled at me for doing, you could do to your heart's content. "She's a lot like you," he would say. "I like her a lot," he would say. "She means a lot to me," he would say. And like an idiot I would smile and nod and think he truly loved me.

I broke up with him not to date somebody else, but because he never made good on his promises. He said he'd come here to be with me. He had several opportunities. Not once did he seize any of them. I nearly up and left my entire family behind, alienated myself from everything, just to be with him, only to be thwarted by my lack of money.

I don't want him back. I'm just furious that I was cheap substitute to somebody twice now.

Re: This is Sarah

[lilflower]

But the fact is... he's not part of your life anymore. If there is such bad blood between the two of you, stop speaking to him, stop reading his lj... just leave him alone. Neither of you are getting anything out of speaking to one another so why don't you just quit? I'm not saying this as a sort of stupid girlfriend "Get away from my man" bullshit. i truly wouldn't mind you two being friends, my only thing is... well you two speaking causes hassle for all concerned.

I have to ask, do you still love him? If you do, then it's understandable that you've got negative feelings towards him but it's been 8 months and you've had a few men after him where as he's just had me... a girl who's on the other side of the world. i mean really, isn't it time to just let go and move on. not forgive just get over it and move on...

Re: This is Sarah

[tranquilheart]

I personally thought Matt's whole post was pretty sweet, and I could read the honesty of his thoughts and feelings in it, in comparison to some people, this guy sounds at least Genuine. I agree with Sarah here though, its a part of the past and sometimes the best way to solve old grudges (especially stupid ones from almost a year back) is to just drop them and move on. Sitting around harboring bad feelings for people and putting out pointless and mean commentary just to create a rift in somebody elses seemingly happy world is petty, and it makes me look down on you a bit Carley, the genuine thing to do would just be to grow up, past anything that happened in your past and Take on new things by storm.

Joo gaht to work likez you dun need the green, dancez like black people, and love like shit aint happened in the past, or you'll end up like me, single by cause of personality loss through inexplicable amounts of bickering with an Ex who I'll never even have the vomit inducing pleasure of seeing again if my luck holds.