This is telling
So I have a new boyfriend and have been spending quite a lot of time at his place. Because of that and all the traveling I've been doing lately, last night I was home for the first time in two weeks. I slept 11 hours, sleeping through the event I stayed home in order to make. When I awoke I was so swollen and stiff that I could barely move, despite taking a triple dose of antihistamines. Even after being awake for several hours, things didn't get better. I still have bags under my eyes.
I have been beating myself up for the last year struggling with why I have accomplished so little and why I've let so many people down. Now I think I have a very definitive answer. The allergies are worse than Kansas here, and there is no reprieve if I wind up spending all my time at home, as invariably happens when I feel so bad. I'm in a classic example of a feedback cycle.
I'm hoping Lun won't mind me wanting to spend a lot of time at his place until I move. Somehow I suspect not.
I have been beating myself up for the last year struggling with why I have accomplished so little and why I've let so many people down. Now I think I have a very definitive answer. The allergies are worse than Kansas here, and there is no reprieve if I wind up spending all my time at home, as invariably happens when I feel so bad. I'm in a classic example of a feedback cycle.
I'm hoping Lun won't mind me wanting to spend a lot of time at his place until I move. Somehow I suspect not.