A sense of quietness
There's a sense of quietness that has come over me since that awful event. It's almost a sense of peace. I think a lot of the thinking I went through during and as a result of the events of two weeks back has put me in a better place. Paradoxically, I'm more open, more quick to smile and less wary and anxious of other people.
I suspect it's a little bit of several things. There's a relief you get when you find and eliminate a problem. I'm surprised but I think that's happening here. Also, there's a bit of the proof on how strong I am. And then that strength and peace that a number of researchers maintain comes with a sense of conquering death.
Probably that last bit counts most. After that, what else do I have to fear?
I suspect it's a little bit of several things. There's a relief you get when you find and eliminate a problem. I'm surprised but I think that's happening here. Also, there's a bit of the proof on how strong I am. And then that strength and peace that a number of researchers maintain comes with a sense of conquering death.
Probably that last bit counts most. After that, what else do I have to fear?