it continues
This morning sucked. really sucked.
i decided to offer a ride to katie. it was fine enough till she mentioned that she wanted to still talk about living situation when she gets back.
fuck all i want to do is go with her. leaving work today i thought about all of this. if she would actually offer an invite for me to come with them. id do it in a heart beat. hell i kinda already quit anyway.
anyway....she just mentioned how she was gonna be packing and hanging out with bleu late saturday night and that i shouldnt be there cuz i wont be able to sleep. i really wanted to just say "please can i come? if not i wanna help pack, drive you to the airport and see you off".
it's hard to think of the last time i had a real kiss with her. i just know it was thursday before she had that bad day at work. i wish to god i could remember it. so much i wanna take back
i got to work just in a bad mood. course the dry valves had tripped. so i started my day, sad as hell and very wet.
went and lost it on the 3rd floor again. pull myself in time to go back to the shop and do what i basically decided would be best.
move out while katie is gone. :-(
so i basically roamed a bunch of sites and craigslist.....nothing that later i found were all taken. drat
had to deal with a roof drain that was a bitch. draintec came out and i swear this kid was 17.....and in idiot. wasted my time.
the rest of the day actually wasnt too bad at all. had teriyaki for lunch...pretty freakin good considering the place. continued to try and find places and miss katie. coworkers aren't exactly helpful....
as the day progressed it actually got pretty good. my little experiment on the retaining wall to clean it is working...actually impressed my boss, who oddly enough, didnt mentioned a fucking thing about the last two days.
ran into hope twice (been running into her everywhere as of late). we chatted a bit and she pointed out (very observantly) that i had had a lip ring at some point. we got into the whole tat/piercing thing. showed me some of hers....showed her mine (kinky lol). she said something that took me back tho. basically around the lines of "you do know i think you pretty freakin cool right?" i gave the awkward laugh and just said "well duh...anything going for FSO is cool". she laughed and brushed her shoulder (the "oh ya im cool" type brush thing) and i walked off.
right around 4 i went to throw something into my car and grab my gaskets for the subie. ran into hope fucking again. asked her what she had planned for the weekend. she gave the "i dont fucking know" answer. told her i was either gonna do a day hike or the iFly thing down in tukwila. she gave me a bunch of ideas for hikes. possibly big or little si. she asked if i didnt like her always terrorizing me. i said i didnt care at all and laughed. she continued with "oh even when your coworkers give you shit? joe texted me after that one day and said 'oh your giving big ass hugs now?'". i just brushed it off again and said i didnt care lol. again, weird moment: i told her to have a good weekend and she said "your leaving now?" i said "well not now but soon". and we parted ways
looking back i shouldve been witty and said "why shouldnt i?" or "maybe, i dont know. should i not".....or something like that. whatever. i shouldnt entertain the idea. nice being flirted with but my heart is and will always be with katie. oh and she gives off so many fucking red flags it's scary
i finally got new exhaust header gaskets on the subie. doesnt sound like god damn gunfire now lol.
on to part two....much deeper. first i need to change the feline box and take some trash out
i decided to offer a ride to katie. it was fine enough till she mentioned that she wanted to still talk about living situation when she gets back.
fuck all i want to do is go with her. leaving work today i thought about all of this. if she would actually offer an invite for me to come with them. id do it in a heart beat. hell i kinda already quit anyway.
anyway....she just mentioned how she was gonna be packing and hanging out with bleu late saturday night and that i shouldnt be there cuz i wont be able to sleep. i really wanted to just say "please can i come? if not i wanna help pack, drive you to the airport and see you off".
it's hard to think of the last time i had a real kiss with her. i just know it was thursday before she had that bad day at work. i wish to god i could remember it. so much i wanna take back
i got to work just in a bad mood. course the dry valves had tripped. so i started my day, sad as hell and very wet.
went and lost it on the 3rd floor again. pull myself in time to go back to the shop and do what i basically decided would be best.
move out while katie is gone. :-(
so i basically roamed a bunch of sites and craigslist.....nothing that later i found were all taken. drat
had to deal with a roof drain that was a bitch. draintec came out and i swear this kid was 17.....and in idiot. wasted my time.
the rest of the day actually wasnt too bad at all. had teriyaki for lunch...pretty freakin good considering the place. continued to try and find places and miss katie. coworkers aren't exactly helpful....
as the day progressed it actually got pretty good. my little experiment on the retaining wall to clean it is working...actually impressed my boss, who oddly enough, didnt mentioned a fucking thing about the last two days.
ran into hope twice (been running into her everywhere as of late). we chatted a bit and she pointed out (very observantly) that i had had a lip ring at some point. we got into the whole tat/piercing thing. showed me some of hers....showed her mine (kinky lol). she said something that took me back tho. basically around the lines of "you do know i think you pretty freakin cool right?" i gave the awkward laugh and just said "well duh...anything going for FSO is cool". she laughed and brushed her shoulder (the "oh ya im cool" type brush thing) and i walked off.
right around 4 i went to throw something into my car and grab my gaskets for the subie. ran into hope fucking again. asked her what she had planned for the weekend. she gave the "i dont fucking know" answer. told her i was either gonna do a day hike or the iFly thing down in tukwila. she gave me a bunch of ideas for hikes. possibly big or little si. she asked if i didnt like her always terrorizing me. i said i didnt care at all and laughed. she continued with "oh even when your coworkers give you shit? joe texted me after that one day and said 'oh your giving big ass hugs now?'". i just brushed it off again and said i didnt care lol. again, weird moment: i told her to have a good weekend and she said "your leaving now?" i said "well not now but soon". and we parted ways
looking back i shouldve been witty and said "why shouldnt i?" or "maybe, i dont know. should i not".....or something like that. whatever. i shouldnt entertain the idea. nice being flirted with but my heart is and will always be with katie. oh and she gives off so many fucking red flags it's scary
i finally got new exhaust header gaskets on the subie. doesnt sound like god damn gunfire now lol.
on to part two....much deeper. first i need to change the feline box and take some trash out